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The Lies We Tell MAG

November 27, 2009
By savemethewaltz SILVER, Lakewood, Ohio
savemethewaltz SILVER, Lakewood, Ohio
9 articles 0 photos 15 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I'm never satified unless I'm crossing things off lists"

“I don't like to wear socks to bed. I feel like my toes are suffocating.”

“I've been wearing the same flowered shirt every Wednesday for the past three months and no one has said anything about it yet.”

“My mom collects miniature lighthouse figurines, and I purposely break them because I think they're ugly.”

“I once lied about having a peanut allergy.”

“I never told my brother that his girlfriend called the house looking for him. They broke up a few days later because of it.”

“I took a bunch of Adderall right before my SATs.”

“I puked in church one Sunday because I had a hangover, but I told my family that I had food poisoning.”

“I once said I wasn't a virgin during a game of Never Have I Ever.”

“When I was a kid, I carved my little brother's name into the wooden coffee table so he'd be the one getting hit for once.”

“I think about death more than any normal person should.”

“I've never said ‘I love you' to any of my previous girlfriends.”

“I've never actually loved any of my previous boyfriends, even though I told them all that I did.”

“Fair enough.”

You love to end our conversations that way. With some kind of bookend, that's hard for me to respond to. It's like you don't want to hear any more or say any more, even though this is your stupid little game. You usually end it with a kiss and I swear I can taste the truth pass between us.

I really don't get you sometimes, you know? This game we play makes no sense. It's like you make light of the lies we tell and the secrets we keep. We flaunt them like battle wounds; I'll show you mine, you show me yours. You want to know everything about me, like it's your job to collect these pieces of information. You make me admit to all of the lies I've ever told and secrets I've ever kept. You make it your duty to coax them out of me. To dig them out and string up my insides like photographs covered in Photo-Flo and hanging up to dry in the darkroom.

We are speaking another language together. I feel like you and I are our own indigenous tribe, sitting around, sipping coffee from Styrofoam cups and stretching the holes in our earlobes. We speak together in tongue clicks and indescribable combinations of sounds to make what we say our own. In a way, it makes it easier to confess my sins; someone else would get lost in translation. No one else understands us. I trace the veins in your forearms and relish the fact that someone of equal caliber has come along.

“I would live forever if I could, but not like this.” You say the things I could only dream of thinking one day. It's a gift and a curse, because you always sound like you're trying to quote The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

“How do you mean?”

You sigh. “I want to start over. I'm too messed up already. I want to go on without all of my past mistakes. I don't want to go to college. I want to go to Big Sur and throw myself off a cliff and start new.”

Maybe we're not of equal caliber. Maybe you just keep me around so I can tell you my secrets and you can turn them into poetry for your creative writing class. The teacher gave you an A-plus on the poem you wrote about my grandpa dying. You would never have known that I stole his dog tags out of the casket if I hadn't told you during a round of your little game. You got offended when I got angry and said, “Maybe I could write like you if I smoked the amount of pot that you do.” But I apologized when you began to cry about your dad hitting you as a little kid, and said you're unable to express that part of your life through your poetry. I hate it when boys cry. Especially you.

“Once I got drunk on wine that I found in the crawl space and I tried to write like Hemingway, but it didn't work.” Oh, crap.

“That's beautiful.”

Now why'd I tell you that? Now you're going to go turn it into some kind of coming-of-age story, and Mr. Petto will give you a big, fat, red check mark in his grade book.

You are always on the brink of destruction. About to be caught, or caged, or kicked out. It's like you to want to be homeless. Like you want an excuse to not shower for days and bum around from one friend's couch to another's. You do that already, but sometimes people at school ask me why you'd rather sleep on a park bench than go home to your warm house with the red mailbox and the skylight in the living room.

You take things for granted, like your trust fund. You call it hush money, a way to keep you from calling child services, even though you turned 18 in April. You want to burn your Social Security card and hop a boxcar. You pretend to be poor by wearing ripped flannel shirts and using cheap, disposable razors that leave little bumps under your chin. Too bad you aren't underprivileged, or anything of the sort. You took acting classes at the rec center. Your mom was a den mother for your Boy Scout troop. Your persona is so clearly a sham that your friends call you “faux-hemian” and laugh at your worn-out copy of Into the Wild.

Everything with you is a game. I don't know who you really are and I don't think you do either. I love you but you're making yourself into something that I don't recognize. I can't tell if it's a clever mask or an act that you can drop like the magician's assistant. I'm afraid it's what you've become.

It is six minutes past my curfew but I don't really care. We could drive away in this drifting Chevy and never look back. We could go missing together. We could run away. That would be terrific. As unrealistic as your fantasies of vanishing from society may sound, they would be worth the trouble if it meant living free with you. Hitchhiking on barren roadsides and scrounging through Dumpsters and panhandling money would all be worth it if I shared the experience with the only boy I've ever loved.

Sometimes I worry you'll run away without me. Like you'll pack up this car with your black skinny jeans and dog-eared Henry Miller books and disappear without a trace. Even though we are only kids and spending the rest of our lives together seems like an infinite impossibility, I guess I would be heartbroken if you left without me. I would never forgive you. Even if you came back to my doorstep a week later, weary from your travels and begging for my love, I would kick and scream like a toddler going red-faced in the cookie aisle of the grocery store. I would never look you in the eyes again. I would erase the synapse that connects the memory of love to the memory of you that lies deep in my brain.

“Don't ever leave me, okay?”


I put my head on your chest. I have a headache. Your concave chest lies under layers of thermal weave.

“Your heartbeat sounds irregular.”

“I won't leave without you. I like you too much to do that.”


“Does that make you feel better?”

“Yes. A little bit.”

You sigh. “Are you afraid I'm going to leave soon?”


You pause. You've probably planned out your whole escape in that ratty composition notebook you carry in your tattered JanSport backpack. You probably printed out maps from MapQuest and used your colored pencils to mark the stops you feel that Christopher McCandless or Jack Kerouac would have made. You've probably scribbled out a few drafts of the poem that details your undying love and regret to me. You'll send it when you reach a truck stop in Iowa or a diner outside of Kansas City.

I know the lies you tell. I know the secrets you keep. I know what makes you tick, what spells you know how to cast. You have weaknesses that I figured out after only a month. You described yourself as a “tapestry of woven complexities” in one of your poems for Mr. Petto. You got a B-minus on that one, you jerk. You are just smoke and mirrors. You're made up of miracles and bull and a set of pearly white teeth.

“Drive me home?”

“If you want.”


Silence. You turn the keys. You start the engine.

“Wait. Never mind.”

If you said all the right things, would it make a difference? If you stopped acting like the world owed you something, would I love you anymore? If you ran away and never showed your face in this town again, would it make me regret telling you things? Possibly. But to think of you changing or leaving or disappearing from my life, to think of you belonging to anyone else or being anywhere but here makes my heart feel like Swiss cheese.

So I guess this game is what we have. All we have. I guess the lies we tell and the secrets we keep mean everything.

“I'm sorry.”

“For what?”

“For thinking you're phony sometimes.”

“You think that?”


“Well, you're forgiven.”

“Okay. Thanks.”

You shut off the engine.

I want to attach myself to you like a dust particle settling in a room full of sunlight. I don't have to be that significant; I have reasonable expectations. I know you have dreams bigger than me. But I promise I will tell you more secrets. You can turn them into mediocre poems. I'll tell you the truth, even. Just let me stay close for a while.

The author's comments:
This was inspired by one of my friends and his actions and attitudes towards the wealth his family has. We were never involved romantically, but this piece expresses my frustration with the way he views the world. All feedback is appreciated!

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on Dec. 8 2010 at 9:09 pm
xBaByGiRrL22x PLATINUM, Pearl River, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"The goal isn't to live forever, but create something that will."
"If you wanna go, baby let's go; if you wanna rock, I'm ready to roll.''
"No one ever said it'd be easy. They just said it'd be worth it." <3

woww. so uniquee! i loveddd it(: i cudnt stop reading from the beginningg. i waznt sure where the story waz going all throughout the piece, nd i really like tht. gr8 jobb plzzzzzzz keep writingg!!!

on Nov. 27 2010 at 12:13 am
Robsessed PLATINUM, McKinney, Texas
23 articles 1 photo 199 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I may be changed by what happens to me, but I refuse to be reduced by it." - Maya Angelou

"Did you know 'I told you so' has a brother, Jacob?" she asked cutting me off. "His name is 'Shut the hell up.'" - Bella Swan, Breaking Dawn

Really cool story. Very honest and one of the most unique pieces I've read on here.

on Nov. 26 2010 at 10:12 pm
SilverBeam BRONZE, IGH, Minnesota
1 article 0 photos 11 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Depression isn't enjoyable. It feels as if there's a thousand pound weight on you. You feel like your heart will crack at any moment; so you sit and you pray it won't be in front of the guy that caused it."

I love this! Please check out my writing!

Ninz59 SILVER said...
on Nov. 24 2010 at 11:19 pm
Ninz59 SILVER, Orland Park, Illinois
5 articles 17 photos 71 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Love conquers all"

Loving this!

Check out my work please!

on Nov. 22 2010 at 5:43 pm
SideraCaeli GOLD, Marysville, Washington
13 articles 1 photo 24 comments

Favorite Quote:
“Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish.” -John Jakes.

This was beautiful. Almost like a poem, and not a short story at all. It was great!

on Nov. 19 2010 at 5:12 pm
SilverLuna SILVER, _________, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
"Come fairies take me out of this dull world, for I would ride with you upon the wind and dance upon the mountains like a flame.".... W.B. Yeats.
"Flying is learning how to throw yourself at the ground and miss." - Douglas Adams

It's true, words to fail in the circumstance of saying how truly fantastic this piece is! Honestly, it's got all the elements of a great writer's genuis! Great Job!


Could you please read a piece of my work? It's under the title of 'Burnt Leaves', if you do I'd really appreciate it! Thanks!

on Nov. 19 2010 at 12:11 pm
Tayrodactyl PLATINUM, Palmyra, Indiana
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i completly agree. this story is absolutly incredible!

on Nov. 11 2010 at 9:11 pm
MayaChristine GOLD, Stocksfield, Other
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This. Is. Amazing. I love it so so so so much, it's insane. Seriously. This is so perfect, it's insane. I'm in awe. You are a genius. (Sorry abbout the short simple sentences, they're for effect. But seriously, this is probably my favourite piece of work I've read on Teen Ink. :D xxx

on Nov. 4 2010 at 11:53 pm
Karamel PLATINUM, Gwinn, Michigan
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Favorite Quote:
"Clever people will recognize and tolerate nothing but cleverness." -Anonymous

You took the words right out of my mouth. I was in awe a quarter of the way through until the very end. Your characters are very real. Spectacular.

on Nov. 1 2010 at 8:48 pm
FreakShow818 PLATINUM, Longmont, Colorado
23 articles 15 photos 33 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Never Let The Fear OF Striking Out Keep You From Playing The Game."

This is perfection. This is beauty. This is too amazing to put in any words. You write poetically, romantically. This is more wonderful than anything I've ever read. It's real, it's raw. It's as fantastic as any book Jane Austen or any other author has written. You tell a huge story in just a few paragraphs. Fantastic! Keep writing PLEASE!

on Oct. 27 2010 at 10:28 pm
elizabitty BRONZE, Not Aplicable, California
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Favorite Quote:
The glass is never half empty unless it started fuller.

I don't know how to descirbe this story. Iwas more than amazing. it was... see there is no word to descibe it. I wish i were half as good as you with my words.

on Oct. 21 2010 at 8:04 pm
squalur996 GOLD, Henderson, Nevada
10 articles 3 photos 43 comments

Favorite Quote:
"If death meant just leaving the stage long enough to change costume and come back as a new character....would you slow down? Or speed up?
-- Chuck Palanick

everything about this was really great. 

on Sep. 23 2010 at 6:57 pm
savemethewaltz SILVER, Lakewood, Ohio
9 articles 0 photos 15 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I'm never satified unless I'm crossing things off lists"

thank you so much everyone! I am very flattered and so grateful that you guys bothered to read my article. I have a few other poems which could use some love, so if you wanna read my other work, I'd appreciate it. I'm also working on another short stories which is similar to "The Lies We Tell". I hope you guys like it!!

AllisonD. said...
on Sep. 23 2010 at 2:47 pm
AllisonD., Bridgewater, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take, but the number of moments that take your breath away.

Its so good! no I take that back- its BREATHTAKING! aw its AMAZZZZZINGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on Sep. 21 2010 at 11:46 pm
Amzzinator BRONZE, Thousand Oaks, California
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Favorite Quote:
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring." -Marilyn Monroe

This is FANTASTIC. Wow. It's... it's amazing. The kind of writing I wish I could do someday. Great job!!!

on Sep. 15 2010 at 4:01 pm
DiamondsIntheGrass GOLD, Martinsville, New Jersey
14 articles 1 photo 278 comments

Favorite Quote:
Worry is simply a misuse of the imagination.

love how realistic it is and romantic without it sounding cheesy.  but, i do have one comment...

when they are talking, it is hard to figure out who is speaking at what time. just saying.

other than that, the story is MARVELOUSLY written. i would love it if you could take a look at some of my work... thanks :)

reg93 BRONZE said...
on Sep. 7 2010 at 7:26 pm
reg93 BRONZE, Billings, Montana
2 articles 0 photos 21 comments

Favorite Quote:
"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left."
— Marilyn Monroe

Holy, wow! haha you are good! this piece was amazingly good. (:

on Aug. 19 2010 at 9:07 pm
Annalibelle BRONZE, Elmsford, New York
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By the way, you should totally turn the wine/hemmingway thing into a comming of age story :)

on Aug. 19 2010 at 9:06 pm
Annalibelle BRONZE, Elmsford, New York
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The premise of this piece is very   unique. I love the dichotomy of the knowing the guy is a phony and loving him desperately. You show strong emotions well, using good metaphors, but not getting too purple or cheesy. The way the piece started was intreguing, it really makes a reader want to see what the story is all about. The device of having "the game" connects this piece together well. My only complaint is that the girl seems so stuck on the boy, whwn the tone of the piece sounds so...distainful at times. The tone of the story when the boy is described, makes you really start to dislike him. But then again two things clashing is what this piece is about...

on Aug. 18 2010 at 12:23 pm
LadyInBlack BRONZE, Randallstown, Maryland
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Favorite Quote:
We are all the same because we all think that we are different,

Realistic && captures the emotion of the girl, brings us into her reality && what almost every teenage girl goes through. The "loving the things i hate about you." Touchedd home. :) Keep Writing.