I’m so scared of the monster

Curled deep inside me

Don’t know when it will flare up

To hurt me and everyone around

It leaves me bleeding-

Gasping while the tears dry

It flares up at the tiniest things

At words that hurt

Or at what I see

When I look at me

The way it makes me feel

Blocking out the light

Crushing out the hope

And all that hurts much more

Than any blade held to my skin

I just know I’ve to block out the pain somehow

As the monster takes over me

And all I see is darkness

Blinding me

I know that there’s a way out

And I know I can fight

So I keep on struggling

With the horror in me

With that part of me

You wont want to see

I know I can do this

So I keep battling

I wont give in

Not now

I wont give up

But I’ll find a way to keep holding on.