I messed up

I messed up big time

I acted like a small child

And I don't even know why

I was confused about myself

And hurt by others

And I took it out on you

I remember and shudder

I was so mean

And vile

And not myself

And in denial

I am bisexual 

Mostly lesbian

And I really liked you

Even though it's a sin

But God I miss you

And I know you know

I need you to respond

Even one word and I'd be gold

We were never really a thing

It was a secret to others

But you were my first girlfriend

And I'm still trying to forget to remember

I wish we would've worked out

I wish you'd give me one more chance

I wish you'd go out with me

If I had the courage to ask

S.A.H, I miss you so much

Please say something

I'm asking you now

Am I enough