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Why Am I the One to Blame (Song)

April 7, 2022
By AtlasK PLATINUM, Tirana, Other
AtlasK PLATINUM, Tirana, Other
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Verse 1:

I'm scared of looking in the mirror

Scared of what I'll see

'Cause every time I look, that isn't me

I'm starting to lose grip on my own reality

But everyone say "You're fine, trust me."

 

Verse 2:

Look to the stars, look for an answer

"I did everything a parent should"

No, you don't understand

But to you I'm as valuable as a grain of sand

Lock and load ready to aim

I'm a disappointment to my family name

 

Chorus:

Cover the scars and hide the pain

No one will notice they'll think I'm sane

But under the surface I'm troubled and nervous

WHY AM I THE ONE TO BLAME!

 

Post-Chorus:

People start yelling

You'd cover your ears

But I float on a cloud

I don't feel my tears

I disconnect and lose touch

Like everything is in third person

I'm losing myself

Someone please help

Before I'm out of reach!

 

Verse 3:

And I can't eat a single thing

Or I eat everything at once

It switches back and forth, nothing ever improves

I want to change my ways but in the end I always lose

How long will this continue before I finally choose

 

Verse 4:

Life or death is it that hard to take

Something that was a mistake in the first place

To this day from when I started they keep wondering why I'm guarded

I've told you before but you don't believe

Someone my age could ever bleed

But here I am blood on the floor

AND NONE OF YOU EVER RACED TO MY DOOR!

 

Bridge:

I HATE WHO I WAS AND WHO I'VE BECOME

MY BODY AND MIND THEY BOTH FEEL NUMB

AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO FEELS THIS WAY, THINKS THIS WAY

I'VE SCREAMED AT MY PAST AND CUT AT MY FUTURE

SOMETIMES I WANT TO LAST

BUT OTHERS I JUST FEEL CONFUSION

WHY AM I HERE? WHAT AM I DOING?

NOTHING MAKES SENSE WHEN YOU'RE STUCK IN DELUSION

 

Chorus:

COVER THE SCARS AND HIDE THE PAIN

NO ONE WILL NOTICE THEY'LL THINK I'M SANE

BUT UNDER THE SURFACE I'M TROUBLED AND NERVOUS

WHY AM I THE ONE TO BLAME!


The author's comments:

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