Trust me
When I tell you
That the beauty of a sunrise in
December is too beautiful for words,
For beliefs

I’m just a step away from the
Edge of the world,
A breath away from
Oblivion
And
Eternity,
Skipping on the stepping stones of reality like a
Lunatic with a death wish

Call me crazy for wanting to feel
Alive, and I’ll do it anyway to
Make you squirm

This is my
Everything,
The reason that I go on,
Without patience,
Ignoring doubt

Try to overshadow my dreams
And the paper moon I threw up into the sky will
Shine through the holes in your conviction
(For the doubt of a doubter
Cannot be without doubt),
And I will walk hand in hand with
Sweet uncertainty on a liquid path of
Moonlight

All around me,
The world will quiver
Incessantly,
Unable to restrain itself within the laws that bind it
Anymore,
Desperately calling my name,
Fearful that my madness will give way to
Conformity
And
The prison I’d released my world from would
Once again be
Locked

So,
Gasping for breath,
It will continue to call me,
Never stopping to urge me
Further
Along the razor thin path of liquid
Moonlight
Spanning the endless seas of
Ecstatic oblivion
Beneath the interminable skies of
Euphoric eternity

I won’t remember where I’ve
Come from
Anymore,
And I certainly won’t know where I’m
Going,
I’ll just be dancing across the bridge,
Unsure of my direction and
Half hoping that I’ll
Fall off into
Oblivion so that I can dive for
Pearls at the bottom of the
Endless sea

So without
Fear
I’ll be dancing on the bridge with the
Wind as my
Partner
And my
Music,
Forcing life into me until I’m so
Saturated with it that when I open my mouth to sing
I won’t even know if what’s coming out is a
Song or if it’s even mine,
Or if it’s not just my own self pouring out into the
Everything around me.

“Where do I even end anymore?”
“Did I ever even exist?”

I’ll remember things…everything,
But will I not just be a mass of ideas
Swirling around in between
Eternity
And
Oblivion
That
Would
Know all these things
That
Do not know me?

Life is beautiful!
I’ll open my eyes and at
Last I’ll see what I’ve
Always known

My eyes will be wide open
But
I won’t need them anymore,
Because in the knowing
I will become the beautiful life that is
Everything and needs
Nothing

All of my certainty will be
Cast away as I move along
And
Realize that things remain the
Same
When they
Change
And thus I will no longer be sure of
Anything

But that will be
Enough for me,
For I won’t be
Afraid

This will be
My
December sunrise!

But

No one will doubt me

I am trusted

And therefore the paper moon I cut out of
My own
Dreams will
Stay in my
Hands…unseen

And without nourishment,
It will die

All because I was always believed in