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When I Die

April 12, 2010
By thewriteidea DIAMOND, Pleasanton, California
thewriteidea DIAMOND, Pleasanton, California
67 articles 0 photos 336 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Don't cry that it's over, smile because it has happened."


I pray
I pray to be killed
By your gun.
I’m tired of being killed
By your words.
I’m tired of seeing your mouth open
Eyes raging
Veins bulging
And my heart knowing
My heart knowing
That death is near.
I feel my blood pumping
Everywhere.
I see your anger pumping
Everywhere
And I see my death
Coming near.
It’s a different kind of death,
Murdered by words.
I don’t get a funeral
A memorial service
A ceremony in memory of.
Most of the time
It’s not recognized at all.
I continue my mechanics
Pretend I am not a walking corpse
I pretend
That a ghost has not possessed my body.
I pretend
That I am not dead.
And I am a very good pretender
Because no one ever notices
When I die.


The author's comments:
written in recognition for everyone who feels like no one notices them. everyone's been there.

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on Dec. 1 2010 at 7:43 pm
thewriteidea DIAMOND, Pleasanton, California
67 articles 0 photos 336 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Don't cry that it's over, smile because it has happened."

that's the plan! actually, i want to be a journalist

on Dec. 1 2010 at 2:05 pm
SecretToTheInside BRONZE, Manitowoc, Wisconsin
3 articles 0 photos 12 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Whatever Floats Your Boat"

so are you going to become a writer?

 


on Dec. 1 2010 at 12:06 am
thewriteidea DIAMOND, Pleasanton, California
67 articles 0 photos 336 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Don't cry that it's over, smile because it has happened."

Thanks so much -- you really made my day.

on Nov. 30 2010 at 8:18 pm
SecretToTheInside BRONZE, Manitowoc, Wisconsin
3 articles 0 photos 12 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Whatever Floats Your Boat"

Heart Moving!!!!

on Nov. 30 2010 at 7:58 pm
SecretToTheInside BRONZE, Manitowoc, Wisconsin
3 articles 0 photos 12 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Whatever Floats Your Boat"

OMG i have read a few of your pieces and your like the best writer out there. you better be a writter when you get older because it will be a shame if you dont

Susie Miller said...
on Oct. 9 2010 at 7:31 pm
Susie Miller, Pleasanton, California
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this was fabulous! a lot of your poems when i try to praise them, it just turns into a rant about how much i love them and the intense meaning behind them. all i'm gonna say is another amazing poem(:

on Oct. 7 2010 at 9:25 am
A_shy_dove GOLD, Hubli, Other
10 articles 1 photo 76 comments

Favorite Quote:
Never compare your life with others, as you have no idea what their journey is all about.

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! such a great piece of work. This is so close to reality.

on Aug. 24 2010 at 2:50 pm
wind.and.rain.again BRONZE, Amherst, Massachusetts
4 articles 0 photos 50 comments

Favorite Quote:
"What is it you wish to do with your one wild and precious life?" Mary Oliver

i can relate to this poem and i bet a lot of other people can too. it encompasses that whole feeling of being hurt emotionally but having to act as if you're just fine. great poem!

on Jun. 3 2010 at 8:49 pm
thewriteidea DIAMOND, Pleasanton, California
67 articles 0 photos 336 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Don't cry that it's over, smile because it has happened."

yeah, the verbal abuse was also on my mind when i wrote this. thank you for being such a kind reviewer!

on Jun. 3 2010 at 7:56 pm
Pitiful_Anonymous PLATINUM, New Cumberland, West Virginia
22 articles 0 photos 75 comments

Favorite Quote:
"and all you f***ers go beep beep beep in cheap,plastic cars. If It's to dumb to see or say you'll still sing it, and I'll just cue the applause" - Marilyn Manson

I see where you get the idea of not being noticed, but as i was reading this i couldn't help but think verbal abuse of some sort... Maybe it's just me, but IDK.....  This is a really great peice and you are a really great writer :)