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Lost

May 1, 2023
By Poet_inthe_Making PLATINUM, Bolivar, Missouri
Poet_inthe_Making PLATINUM, Bolivar, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
"I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns." -Philippians 1:6


there was a point in my life

where it all seemed to hurt

I was so lost

But I was comfortable


Finally I stopped

I went to a church that changed me

and then I was new

Or I thought I was


Now I wonder..


I’m falling back into old habits

I’m too scared to stay out there

out of my comfort zone

because what if it hurts


They tell me I’m loved

they tell me I’m Forgiven

but these old habits

The way they eat at me


It feels like He preys on my struggle


I feel like I can’t control it

I feel like I can’t breathe

Why do my habits consume me

Why do they make me rot


I feel like a vegetable

not a pretty, ripe, nice vegetable

more like one that’s wilting

from sitting in the sun for hours


It’s been forgotten and left

sometimes I wonder if that is me

Am I forgotten and left?

Or do I forget and leave?


Now I am lost

 

I’m not sure how to stop

I’m not sure I can

I’m falling back

And I don’t know how to get back up


Maybe it’s all me

It’s all my fault

but God I know it is

Maybe it’s because I left


Would I struggle like this

Again

If I would just submit?

I already know the answer


But how do I do that

when there’s so many people 

that could help me

that I could help


But they’re not on the right side

Or they’re just as lost as me


How

Do

Stop

?


I’m so lost



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