As I look in the mirror, I don’t notice you

Everythings changed, even your attitude 

You’re running out of love but coming up on money 

You got your own crib, it feels good, doesn't it?

How are you functioning without the only person you thought you needed?

Is your mind gone or your soul? 

Do you feel depleted?

Your dad is gone 

And everything you once knew

You doing your best trying to keep up with school

Never have energy because you’re always arguing with your boo

You find yourself praying 

Because you have monkey brain 

You think whoever's listening won't be able to understand

What you're saying….

As you look in the mirror a second time 

It's still not you 

Dad would be so disappointed to know you’re failing in school

But I’m not dad, you know I’m not a quitter 

I eat all my problems and leave no crumbs like at dinner 

She has been cursed with a curse 

And not having you or my family is making it worse 

Remember I used to be so bubbly? So full of life?

I got stabbed in my back, left for dead and sh*tted on 

By the people that was supposed to nourish me to help me grow

I am angry but I’m frustrated that I care now 

And I ain’t never cared before 

Feel like you’re failing your little siblings because 

You can’t imagine what their going through 

So you put on a face and smile 

While thoughts about how your siblings 

Will know dad is gone 

So he can’t come to the events at school

You were forced with a hand that a devil delt 

But you played it smart 

And didn’t let every thought dictate how you felt. 

No words can make it better. 

No laughs, and no cries. 

Never said it but when  my dad left

A part of me died. 

You’ll never see the same person in the mirror 

Gotta imagine yourself bigger 

Build yourself up for yourself 

Your siblings need you 

So next time you look in the mirror

Things will be clearer.