An ocean between us

the tsunami comes rushing in

not a day has passed

I miss you like air, like sound, like silence

northstar, homecoming, heartbeat

you have peeled back my skin and laid my soul bare

only to find that there is nothing there

I handed myself to you all those years ago when I told you to go

and you’ve carried me with you

through tundra and rain

through all your wreckage and pain

did it keep you steady

did it keep you sane

I left myself in your hands

and I have yet to learn

how to pull myself back into my skin

out of the grip of our childhood tragedy

holding on to a losing hand

Sisyphus with his rolling stone

up I climb

and up once more

how cruel you must be

your voice calls me home

but the locks have been changed

up I climb

and up once more

how cruel you must be

your hand reaches

but our fingers don’t meet

up I climb

and up once more

each time crueler than the time before

two worlds away

I cut my hand and call out your name

two universes away

your heart breaks,  you have nothing to say, but I hear your voice shake

this is destined

this is pain

my loneliness does not ache the same

it grows and grows

feasts on time and laps up distance

this is nothing fragile

this is nothing flimsy

this is gone and back again

this is forgotten and remembered

this is dead but now risen

this is waiting, waiting, waiting

northstar, homecoming, heartbeat

I miss you like air, like comfort, like craving

a lifetime has passed

the tsunami comes rushing in

there are oceans between us