Losing feelings.

Why am I like this?

I thought I was so in love.

I’m losing feelings.

Hurting people.

I’m so in love

But I’m so not.

I knew it would happen.

It always does.

I don’t want to leave.

I don’t want to go.

It’ll hurt me.

Me and my pretend made up

Movie feelings.

I found someone so perfect

So amazing

Why can’t I feel anymore?

Why does this always happen?

Why am I always in pain when I’m sad

But I’m numb when I’m happy?

It’s like I don’t know how to be happy.

Like maybe I can’t feel happiness.

It’s not an emotion my body is capable of feeling.

Maybe my brain messed up.

I’m losing feelings.

No longer happiness

Or sadness

Or even the will to care.

What’s wrong with me?

Why can’t I feel anymore?

Movies

Movies

Movies

This never happens in the movies.

She is the movies.

I am the movies.

We are the movies.

But this never happens in the movies.

No numbness instead of happiness

In the movies.

Maybe

Actors

Don’t

Feel

In the movies.

Am I an actress?

Are my feelings

Just a script?

Are the words I say

Just a script?

Is she

Just a script?

Maybe it’s me

That’s the script.

Feelings are just pretend?

Words I say are just pretend?

The way I look at her is just pretend?

Am I just pretend?

Movies.

She’s so much like the movies.

We are so much like the movies.

I can’t

Do

This

Anymore.

I can’t

Be

Numb

Instead of happy

Anymore.

Someone

Help

Me.

I’m losing feelings

And I’m hurting people I love.