It's always "I look up to you."

"You're smart."

"You're pretty."

"You're so organized

and lucky."

"You must be so happy,

You look it."

"I want to be like you."



... but I'm not smart, it takes hours of

mind boggling studying.

It's not natural beauty; it's make-up, contacts,

funky clothes (that I just wear to fit in)

MY LIFE IS A MESS!

I'm forever forgetting things I have to do right

when I go to do them.



Lucky?

How can I be lucky, if I actually have the worst

luck?

There's not a day where something bad doesn't happen to

me.

It's an act. "Look happy to make others happy," I say.

When I'm really happy I frown because I don't feel I

deserve it.



Be you, not me.

Don't count on me to be a good rolemodel.



They say I'm perfect, they're totally wrong.

There's so much wrong with me.



If you still want me as your rolemodel then

here's my advice for you:

"Don't let things get to you and you'll

be happy."

"Don't overwork yourself, you can't be too smart."

"Take care of you, you're already pretty."



... I guess you're lucky to have a rolemodel like me!