Because of you, my mind runs wild,

With questions about who you are

The few things I know are bizarre 

They make me scared to be your child

I can’t help but sit and wonder

If we were to meet what you’d say

Or if you’d choose to stay away

These thoughts leave me torn asunder

And let sadness pull me under

Though I wouldn’t say I miss you

Sometimes my feelings will push through

Things I’ve learned make my world collapse 

Like how you’re a sociopath

I’m scared that part of me is you

You’re half of me, and you’re insane

What if I have your insane half?

Because of you, my mind runs wild,

With questions about who you are

The few things I know are bizarre 

They make me scared to be your child

I hate that I look just like you

But what if it’s more than just looks

And I start reading through the books

Not wanting to be crazy too

In my mind, I tighten each screw

Taking care that not one is loose

Making sure my mind is abstruse

Now every day I think and ponder

Of my life, if you’d stayed longer

Fear controls everything I do

I avoid that part of myself

Because I want to be stronger

Because of you, my mind runs wild,

With questions about who you are

The few things I know are bizarre 

They make me scared to be your child

I did not deserve all of this

To be left by my own father

Stuck as an insane man's daughter

Crying alone in the abyss

Knowing now, ignorance is bliss

So here I stand all by myself

Questioning my own mental health

I can’t get it out of my head

That this is where I have been led

My feelings are up on the shelf

Until I’m ready to face them

‘Till then, my fears remain unsaid