If it wasn’t for my grandma and my mom and a few other people I wouldn’t be here today. As a highschooler who doesn’t have a lot of money. I get bullied a lot. I get bullied because I don’t always have the best clothes or the best shoes or the best phone. I also get bullied because I’m not a little twig of a person. I am happy with who I am and who I want to be. I get bullied everyday if its not on the way to or from summer school its on the side of the road while I’m walking home or on social media site. These past few days have been rough between being called fat and ugly on the bus ride here or home or on social media sites or the everyday people telling me to kill my self so you start thinking should I am I not supposed to be here am I not good enough. Do I even deserve to live.

People say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger sometimes that’s not always true sometimes what doesn’t kill you make you weaker and it makes think about suicide. Sometimes I go a full week thinking about suicide sometimes I don’t think about it at all. I have a self harm jar. It is a jar that you put peoples name and if you are thinking about suicide you message them and talk to them. There is a song called Steven by Jake miller I listen to it everyday it helps me because I can relate to it. A few days ago I was cyber bullied and I sat in my room that whole day and cried I even cried my self to sleep woke up crying from nightmares everyday I walk home scared for my life and scared I will get called names by the people passing in there cars. I never really had a lot of friends at my home school. I have few close friends but my best friend is there to cheer me up and she always is there to listen. I’ve been going through depression for a few years I’ve gotten as little stronger throughout the years but I also break at the same time.
When I feel down I talk to my grandma she always seems to help weather its telling me everything will be ok or that I am beautiful some how she manages to make me feel better I could just call her and talk to her on the phone for hours on end it makes my grandma upset when I’m upset.
In my point of view it shouldn’t matter what you look like or who you hang out with or what you look like or who you want to be or what you wear or what phone you have or what your hair looks like be who you want to be. I’ve been bullied my whole life.