I was scared to lose it all. Scared of all the nothing I would have left. I didn’t want to have an empty canvas with no paint. I had built up my life around you and I knew it was wrong but you just made me feel so secure, so safe, so certain. But then you stole it all, stole my paint, my beautiful colors. Now I know that it’s gone, gone from my future but it still lurks in my past, dark and shimmering, but it’s all faded. Good and bad. Happy and sad. You were the color in my life, it may have been splatter and messy but it was beautiful. It was my beautiful future, now a beautiful nothing. It’s gone like you and I miss the color, the randomness, the beauty. You were beautiful to me, now you’re my beautiful memory and I miss you everyday. I hope you miss me too, your beautiful cutie pa tu tie <3