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EC+AM=4ever Chapter 31

January 18, 2010
By TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
183 articles 7 photos 484 comments

Favorite Quote:
He's the one I call in the middle of the night. He's the one who makes everything alright. He loves me with no regret...I just haven't found him yet.

June 21, 2009
2:30 a.m.
Ash's Car

I sat, looking out the window, looking away from Ash. I couldn't even bare a single glance at him. At that moment, I absolutely hated him.

"Evalynne, talk to me." Ash pleaded, sounding desperate. I didn't reply. "Please, just say something. I know you're mad at me, but I'm sorry. He was touching you though,"

"He touched my back." I said angrily. "And it was my fault anyways, because I let him. And if I'd known that you were going to make such a big deal over it, I would have never told you."

"But he had his hand up your shirt, Evalynne! That's a big deal to me!" he cried.

"Well you had your fist in Cole's face. That's a big deal to me too." I retorted evenly. For reasons unknown, he pulled over in the parking lot of a nearby McDonalds. "What are you doing?" I demanded.

"I'm not going to start driving again until you forgive me." he stated firmly.

I eyed him in irritation. "If you start this car up within the next five seconds, I'll get out and walk back to the hotel so that when Cole's conscious, he can drive me home."

His face fell. He obviously wasn't expecting me to crush his perfect little plan like that, but I didn't care. I wasn't expecting him to knock Cole out.

"You know, I didn't want to admit this, but the truth is...I'm jealous of you and Cole." Ash said shamefully.

I softened up to this a bit, because I knew what it was like to be jealous. I had been jealous of Julianne when she was with Ash. And I'd been jealous of Katrina when Kristy had told me that she and Ash were still together. Kristy. Ash had told me that she'd made a move on him.

"What happened with Kristy when she came over to your house?" I demanded.

This question took Ash by surprise, "Um, well..." he trailed off at the end, looking away from me.

"Just tell me." I said.

"Ok, ok," He sighed and continued, "Well she came over, saying she needed to talk to me. Then she started saying stuff..."

"Stuff?" I asked.

"Yeah," he replied.

"Like what kind of stuff?"

"Well she told me that I didn't need you and that I could do so much better. She said that I should go out with her. The next thing I knew, she was kissing me. I pulled away and told her that I wasn't interested, but she said that she wasn't going to give up that easily and then left."

I felt my heart sink. I'd trusted Kristy. I'd confided in her for all of my life and she betrayed me. She lied to me, she went behind my back with Ash, she ditched me for Julianne and Kelly, and then she called me the bad friend.

Ash must have noticed the grim look on my face, because he slid an arm around my shoulder and pulled my closer to him. "I'm sorry," he murmured.

I pulled away from him, "You always tell me that," I remarked sharply. "When are you going to start meaning it?"

His face was a mix of hurt and shock. "But I do mean it."

"Really? Because if you were truly sorry, you wouldn't have to say it so many times. If you really were sorry, you wouldn't have punched Cole. If you were really sorry, I would be able to trust you."

"You don't trust me?" he asked softly.

"No, not anymore. I did at first, but after getting my heart broken so many times in the last month, I realize that I don't even know who you are. So how can I trust you?"

"What do you mean? You know who I am."

"No, Ash, I don't. I barely know anything about you! All I know is that you have this weird way of making people fall in love with you, and even when you completely ruin everything, you still get forgiveness. I'm not sure why I've given you so many chances, but I'm through with it. I'm sick and tired of having to forgive you!"

"But I'm going to be gone in a month. I had to make you fall in love with me, or else I'd never get to be with you. And by doing it so quick, I've made tons of mistakes. I don't think you realize how hard things are for me, Evalynne. After all, your dad is still alive, your mom isn't in a coma."

My heart all but stopped. I had put his mom in that coma. I kept on getting at him, when I had made the worst mistake of all. And I didn't even have the guts to tell him about it. But I had to. I couldn't break up with him because of all of his mistakes, without even telling him what I'd done.

So I took a deep breath, my heart pounding in my chest. "Ash, there's something I need to tell you."

"What is it?" he replied.

"Your mom...she's in a coma because of me." I said softly.

His eyebrows knitted together in confusion. "What?"

"I caused that accident. I stepped out into the street and I didn't know that the car was going to swerve and it did and it hit your mom's car..." I couldn't continue. I was getting all choked up. I looked at Ash to see how he would react.

But he didn't. His face was completely emotionless. He was staring at me, without really even seeing me. More like staring past me. I didn't know if he hated me, I didn't know if he was relieved to know the truth., I just didn't know.

"Ash?" I squeaked, my voice cracking.

"How could you?" he whispered, his voice hoarse with unshed tears.

"I didn't do it on purpose, I swear!" I cried. "I'm so sorry! I didn't even know that your mom was in that car!"

He shook his head, "So the police don't know about this, right?"

"No," My guilt was eating at me and I couldn't do anything about it. "Are you going to tell them?"

"No, you are." he stated.

My stomach churned. "What are you talking about? I can't tell them!"

"You can, you just don't want to."

"Well would you want to turn yourself into the cops? I've already had my encounter with the law this summer, I don't need another one!"

"Why didn't you tell me before?" he asked, a bit randomly.

"I meant to, I just couldn't. I didn't know what you would think of me. I'm so guilty, Ash. I'm so sorry."

"I know how you feel. I killed my dad, remember?" he said languidly. "Don't worry...I forgive you."

"What?" That just didn't make sense. "After everything I've done, you forgive me?"

"It was an accident. Besides, you told me how sorry you are and I think that your guilt is punishment enough. I can't not forgive you when I've been in the same situation. I'm not a hypocrite."

"Yeah, but I put your mom in a coma. And I was about to end things with you. How can you be so understanding?"

"I've been through a lot, Evalynne. And I've learned to be strong and keep a straight face even through the most difficult situations. It's not like my mom's dead. She might make it out alive. I just know that it would be wrong to hold a grudge over this when it was an accident. It doesn't seem fair."

"I'm officially the worst person in the world." I replied miserably. "You forgive me for this, when I can't even forgive you for punching Cole."

"You haven't had to deal with heartbreak and let-down like I have. You're not use to dealing with things like this. But I am and I've had to mature much faster than most people. I've had to be strong not only for myself, but for my mom too. I can handle this."

"But you got so upset when I was going to break up with you." I reminded him.

"That's because I've never felt this way about anyone. Believe me, I'm upset about my mom, but I'm keeping a straight face for you. I've got to hold myself together for you." I could hear the hidden pain in his voice. And I felt it too.

I shook my head, "No you don't. You're eighteen, not thirty. And even if you were thirty, you still shouldn't have to go through all of this. And you most definitely don't have to pretend like everything's ok when it's not. You don't have to hide your feelings from me. I get it. Believe me, I break down sometimes too."

He nodded, and a tear rolled down his cheek, but he brushed it away with the back of his hand. Then he started up his car and backed out into the road. "By the way," I added softly, "I forgive you."

And when I looked back at him, there was a hint of a smile on his face. And that was all I needed to know that I couldn't break up with him. Not yet.

The author's comments:
Hope you all like it! And by the way, since Teen Ink takes suck a long time to upload articles, I've posted the entire story on So if you're interested in reading the rest of EC+AM=4ever, it's on Thanks for reading! :)

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This article has 11 comments.

Catiestar GOLD said...
on Jun. 30 2011 at 12:11 am
Catiestar GOLD, Clayton, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds <3


Team Ash....

TheBug BRONZE said...
on Jun. 16 2011 at 2:05 am
TheBug BRONZE, Uniontown, Kentucky
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Favorite Quote:
“I see myself as a huge fiery comet, a shooting star. Everyone stops, points up and gasps "Oh look at that!" Then- whoosh, and I'm gone...and they'll never see anything like it ever again... and they won't be able to forget me- ever."- Jim Morrison

This is the first time I've stayed up 'til 2 AM reading, but it's worth it. Definitely Team Ash now.

on Aug. 20 2010 at 11:30 pm
TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
183 articles 7 photos 484 comments

Favorite Quote:
He's the one I call in the middle of the night. He's the one who makes everything alright. He loves me with no regret...I just haven't found him yet.

thank u sooo much i'm glad u like it lol :)

on Aug. 20 2010 at 1:06 am
HippieNamedAnna PLATINUM, Kansas City, Missouri
21 articles 7 photos 90 comments

Favorite Quote:
Let It Be-The Beatles
Music is the only thing that makes sense any more-Me
Make love, not war-a bunch of people
Roses are red, Violets are blue, I have five fingers, The middle one's for you-Me :)

team ash now. ive never stayed up past 12 am reading. this is amazing!!!!

on Jul. 24 2010 at 11:32 pm
I feel the oppostie way

pen&paper said...
on Jun. 14 2010 at 6:47 pm
ok, i've been reading this since... yesterday? yah, yesterday. so... i've seen all of these characters develop and i have to say i am team ugumpta, b/c Ash is such a frickin' jerk!!!! can he plz leave? can she break up with him and move far away? can Cole mature a little bit?? if he does, i'm team Cole cuz Ash is just being SO annoying.

on May. 23 2010 at 10:13 pm
ashkash95 SILVER, New Hyde Park, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:8

I swear both Ash and Cole are like drugs...i liked a guy and even though he was a complete jerk i kept coming back cause he would have moments that made me melt but now we're just friends but she should pick Ash cause hes forgiving her for putting his freakin mom in a freakin coma!

on Apr. 14 2010 at 6:39 pm
TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
183 articles 7 photos 484 comments

Favorite Quote:
He's the one I call in the middle of the night. He's the one who makes everything alright. He loves me with no regret...I just haven't found him yet.

well thats good that u didn't stick around with that friend then. evalynne relies on ash too much & whenever they fight she feels so lost, so its good that u didn't do wut she did lol :)

on Apr. 13 2010 at 5:53 pm
thisisascreenname BRONZE, Sugarloaf, California
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except i wouldnt give up my happiness for him. hes kinda tormenting her. i had a friendship kinda like this once. my best friend was totally depressed and i spent all my time tryin to make her happy. but that only made me sad. so now i got some upbeat friends too and i dont revolve around one person, especially when that is depressed and treats me badly.

on Apr. 13 2010 at 3:47 pm
TeamJacobArchuleta ELITE, Chicago, Illinois
183 articles 7 photos 484 comments

Favorite Quote:
He's the one I call in the middle of the night. He's the one who makes everything alright. He loves me with no regret...I just haven't found him yet.

lol u & evalynne have the same problem :)

on Apr. 12 2010 at 6:51 pm
thisisascreenname BRONZE, Sugarloaf, California
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urrrrrrgh! why does he have to be so understanding? i so badly want to hate him!!! i cant though without being an unforgiving jerk! grr.