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The Prince Is Dead

November 20, 2011
By Anonymous


He dares use my own spell against me?

Severus, no, Severus, no, draw your wand, draw your wand, hurt him back –
You can’t.
He will kill you he will kill you

He is killing me.
This is all I am to him? Disposable, valueless, I thought I meant more –

You didn’t.
What did he say?


I don’t speak it but I know.

Thump. Pressing me hard against the glass. Blood.
Don’t close your eyes don’t close your eyes
Thump. Poison, hot and acrid, shooting in.
Don’t cry out don’t cry out

It’s gone. It’s gone? It’s gone.
It’s gone?

It’s gone.

Antidotes. Severus, you know antidotes. Now, here’s what you’re going to do. You will get up. You will walk, even though it hurts, even though it’s bleeding but you’re strong and you have to walk. You will reach the castle, and you will go down the stairs, down into the dungeons where you used to teach Potions. You will go into the storeroom, and you will look in the box for a bezoar, and you will swallow it even though it hurts, even though it’s hard, you will swallow it because you have to and then it will be better. Everything will be okay.

I’m still here. I’m still here and I’m bleeding and I’ve closed my eyes. No.


Footsteps, footsteps. Hushed voices, someone kneeling close to me. Potter. Potter? The little hero, come to make sure I do not die in peace. Hate curls up inside of me.
I can’t see past him, it’s too blurry, but I know it’s that Granger girl, I know it’s that moron Weasley.
It’s too blurry.

“Professor,” he says, or I think he does. “Professor, it’s okay, you’re going to be okay.”

Etched on his hand next to my face are the words:

I must not tell lies.

Some people
Cannot obey.

Now I wonder things. Now I wonder where the Dark Lord is, whom he is killing now. I wonder where my godson is, and if he will be among the number who lay still and unblinking by the sunrise. For a moment, I can see him like that, lips slightly parted, his pale, pale eyes awake with emptiness. The picture does not frighten me: death, for him, would be a sweet release. Lately, I have only killed those whom I could not save.

Remember Lily, Severus? You could have saved her. You didn’t.
You killed her, Severus.

I want to cry. I don’t want to cry. Something rises, sharp and heavy, in my throat, but it is memory that leaks from my eyes. And I hear Potter’s panicked voice, feel his shaking hand brush my cheek as he lifts it into the glass.

“Take it to the Pensieve.” It hurts, it hurts so much to speak past the rattling of blood in my throat, but I do, because I have to.

There was red hair, a red deeper than blood or fire, different, stronger than the Weasley orange. There were green eyes, sparkling, green like emeralds, green like Slytherin House.

There were green eyes that widened with fear at the curse that matched them exactly.

There was the way she laughed.

“Look at me.”

Look at me, Lily, look, watch, please watch me, please, please be my friend, Lily, please kiss me, oh Lily, didn’t you love me?

(She didn’t love you)

I loved you, Lily.

I protected your son, I kept him alive, even though I hated him, even though he was every bit as bad as his father.

Because Lily, I had to.

I made so many promises, and somehow I kept them all.

(Dumbledore falls from the tower, small and broken in death)

But I could not keep you.

Potter hasn’t blinked, Potter hasn’t looked away. Blood rises on my tongue.

“You have your mother’s eyes.”

It hurts so much, it hurts so much, but I do not cry out. I close my eyes, shutting in the emerald, trying so hard to remember.

I do not wish to die with my eyes to the stars. I do not want the picture of her to escape to the heavens.

I am so tired.

My name is Severus Snape. I have the Dark Mark on my arm, but I am also part of the Order of the Phoenix. My name is Severus Snape; I am a heroic villain, a villainous hero, a paradox, a man.

I pretended to love many people. I had a godson whom I never intended to protect. I had fellow professors at Hogwarts whom I never counted as friends. I had debtors, great giants benevolent and wicked, and I never intended to repay them.

I have seen the greatest wizard of all time killed by my own hand, an empty shell against the moon, because I had to. I have seen the most evil wizard in history dissolve in rage. I have seen a boy, a mere child, curl up writhing on a stone floor, sobbing and begging his master to stop, please stop, and I have watched coldly, unflinchingly, because I had to. I served every master. Always, I obeyed.



Oh, Lily.

Forgive me, please.

I had to.

There was one friend, one imaginary lover, one name that ate away at the throbbing of my blood, one woman whom I killed because I loved her, one girl who destroyed me and cared for me more than anyone else in the world.

And she is gone.

My name is Severus Snape, and I hate Harry Potter.

My name is Severus Snape.
I’m scared of death.


I’m scared.


I don’t want to die.







Maybe there’s no afterlife. Maybe this blackness on the inside of my eyes is all there is left for me. Maybe I’m going to hell, but I don’t want to go to hell because I know you won’t be there, Lily.

You kind, you sweet, you beautiful and terrible girl, you destroyed me, and in return I tried to save your life – oh wonderful Lily, I tried so hard. But hard wasn’t enough, was it? Not in the end.

This world has been so cruel to me. It has been cruel to the both of us, always.

No more.

The author's comments:
A stream-of-consciousness-style piece about Severus Snape's thoughts as he lay dying. Filmverse. Enjoy, and please comment! ^-^

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on Apr. 27 at 10:19 pm
Books_And_Scribbles SILVER, Adelaide, Other
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Favorite Quote:
'I try not to think, it interferes with being nuts.' -Leo Valdez, Heroes of Olympus, Rick Riordan.

Every Alice in Wonderland quote you can think of, just put it here - C.S. Lewis

'You have to flaunt the weird, my friends.' - Alex Fierro, Rick Riordan.
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this is amazing! :)

on Jun. 15 2021 at 12:19 pm
WolfGurl PLATINUM, Not A Real Place, Indiana
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A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself. –Josh Billings

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A nation that destroys its soils destroys itself. Forests are the lungs of our land, purifying the air and giving fresh strength to our people. —Franklin D. Roosevelt

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Wow, this is SO good! 5/5! I never liked Snape as much as Sirius or Lupin, but wow. this really sums everything up really well. I love it. its just SO good!

on May. 13 2018 at 11:29 am
Celia Buell SILVER, Skokie, Illinois
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Wow...I'm not a Snape fan but I honestly love this so much. It really sums up everything. And by the way who was the godson? Draco?

on Sep. 18 2012 at 11:16 am
MarieAntoinette2014 DIAMOND, Scottsburg, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
Isn't it ironic? We ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones who ignore us, love the ones who hurt us, and hurt the ones that love us.

Aw man. I always cry when Snape dies. His story is heartbreaking really.

on Jan. 4 2012 at 10:38 am
NoOneOfConsequence SILVER, Mishawaka, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:

This was amazing, right up until the end. I hope you're okay with criticism, because the end...just didn't cut it for me. The rest of the piece was so good it definitely raised my expectations for the ending. I just felt like there should be something more, that the ending should be more poetic. But I don't really have any specific suggestions on what to do about it. Still, this is a wonderful piece that deserves five stars :)

on Dec. 23 2011 at 10:32 am
Timber2598 SILVER, La Jolla, California
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Favorite Quote:
"Live long and prosper"-Spock
"Help will always be given at Hogwarts to those who deserve it."-Albus Dumbuldore Harry Potter 7
"Who says we have to grow up?" Walt Disney

That was AMAZING!!!! I'm a Harry Potter adict so I know evereything you potraid Snape perfectly. Loved it. ^^

on Dec. 7 2011 at 2:52 pm GOLD, Potomac, Maryland
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— A.A. Milne (Winnie-the-Pooh)
"writing is a struggle against silence" carlos fuentos
You miss 100% of the shots you don't take."

To be honest, I wasn't that much of a HP fan, but this made Snape seem so much awesomer than he was portrayed in the books and movies! Awesome job!

on Dec. 7 2011 at 2:18 pm
FluteFreak SILVER, Auburn, Indiana
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Favorite Quote:
"Insanity just adds a little spice to life!" -Me

I love this! 5/5 stars!

on Dec. 3 2011 at 1:51 pm
cmiley_freaky SILVER, Mississauga, Other
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Favorite Quote:
"Go for it now, the future is promised to no one." - Wayne Dyer.

wow, just wow.
it's the greatest feeling of all when you read works by real harry potter fans!
this is AMAZING.
it just reminded me of the fact that i love harry potter so much.
and that snape is my hero! :P
uuughh nostalgia!
but great job!

on Dec. 2 2011 at 10:33 pm
Jappyalldayeveryday, Detroit, Michigan
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I really like this. It's sweet and delves deep into Snape's character.