I know he didn't mean to do it
His intentions were never to hurt me
At least that's what I tell myself
When it's 4 am and I feel lonely

We weren't always like this
Fighting about pointless stuff
Assuming he's with other girls
Knowing that this wasn't enough

Me and him used to laugh at everything
Never letting anything get in the way
Thinking of what we had
Could never possibly be gone in a day

And as time passed, one of us had struggled
With loving the other one, it now felt like a chore
Praying to god that our love would come back
But now knowing I became a bore

I truly felt like he was the one
To always be there for me when i'm down
But things had started to change
And I was always wanting to frown

I knew the time had came
He said he wanted to talk
My heart ached before he even said it
He could no longer be on lock

Sorry was repeatedly used
Like it was his favorite word to say
But I know it hurt him too
Having to let me go away

I still think about him
Even when it's been more than a year
Wondering if we could ever be something again
But now loving someone again is my biggest fear