I used to be your puppet but not anymore.

You used to be the master controlling my strings

I used to be your mindless doll

I used to be a toy on your shelf 

From the moment the new guy walked in the house I was just your ragdoll.

Your puppet, your means to control everything in my life 

I've never been more than a tool for you.

But not anymore I control my own life.

I've finally cut all my ties with you

I've finally learned one simple word N-O 

No!

I refuse to be used. 

I refuse to be drug around 

You can't do this to be any more 

You can no longer choose my path for me 

Mom, I can't hate you 

But I hate the things you've done to me

You've lied to me, you've broken me, you've broken me into a million pieces

Yet I don't feel complete without you

I wish you would just leave me alone 

Every time you text me it's like a new wave of depression 

I try to smile on the outside but it's so hard to hide.

Hard to hide all the pain you've caused me.

Hard to hide all the pain you make me feel

Your love feels so forced

Your love has always been something I had to earn.

Attention was always scarce

Conditional, that's what your love is

So to get your attention I played Pinocchio 

You'd tell me not to lie then turn around and do exactly that.

You'd expect perfection from somebody who isn't perfect

You wanted a princess 

A cute little lady

Someone proper and pristine 

But instead, you got me.

Not proper, not pristine.

Nowhere near a princess 

I'm somebody who doesn't do their nails

I rarely wear dresses 

Someone who doesn't care about the girly things people say I should

I don't go to salons to get my hair in braids

I don't go to salons to get my hair washed

I go to get it cut. I go to get it dyed.

I wanna look unique because that is what I am 

I'm not what you'd expect from a broken person

The more you break me the stronger I get.

So Erica leave my world and destroy your own. 

It looks to me like you're good at that