I wish you could understand me
but I dont want you to feel like I do
like a hangover that lasts for years
an ocean with no shore worth swimming to

I want to love you
I want to give you what you need
but im scared of pulling you down
along with me

Im so tired all the time
im so tired and I dont know why
im so tired and I dont know why
I'm so tired of this f*cking life

I hear you uncapping your lipstick
and the whir of the bathroom light turning on
you're going out dancing without me again
while I watch the shadows crawling on the walls

the only warmth is the coffee you bought me
sitting on my nightstand in the dark
when you touch me can feel
the callous on my heart?

I want to love you
I want to make you smile
but how can I be there for you
when I just wanna die

Im so tired all the time
im so tired and I dont know why
im so tired I just wanna cry
I'm so tired of this f*cking life

I still want pride parades
and lazy summer days
watching stars wars on the couch and pillow fights
I remember summer nights
your electric eyes
but it hasn't felt like that for a long long time
and there's so much I don't know how to say
so I say

Im so tired all the time
im so tired and I dont know why
I'm so sorry I wasted your time
I'm so tired of this f*cking life