when I was a child I dreamed of dark water
and rocks that would shatter my spine
I saw myself crumble like a coastal cliff
heard the wind howl as it passed me by
and now I guess its not so romantic
but a bathroom floor will do just fine
and when you find me lying there
dont pretend to be surprised

I will rest in December
If springtime starts
and leaves me behind
I hope you remember
that I tried
the cold will last forever
in my mind
the cold will last forever
in my mind

there's so much beauty in the world
but its not enough to change my mind
We both know this moment
has been coming for a long time
I couldn't save me from myself
so I tried to talk to you
But who am I kidding, you couldn't save me
even if you had wanted to

I will rest in December
If springtime starts
and leaves me behind
I hope you remember
that I tried
the cold will last forever
in my mind
the cold will last forever
in my mind

im gong to miss the Pacific Ocean
I didnt go there enough
because the salt got in the scars on my arm
I remember how bad it stung
I'm going to miss the warmth of your arms
I'm gonna miss the sound of rain
but the future feels so hollow now
and I promise its better this way

I will rest in December
If springtime starts
and leaves me behind
I hope you remember
that I tried
the cold will last forever
in my mind
the cold will last forever
in my mind

if you read my love letters backwards
they all turn into suicide notes
dont bother wondering why
if you dont already know
and im haunted by my future self
she's an angel and a curse
she screams at me of the tragedy
of a story forever left unheard

I will rest in December
If springtime starts
and leaves me behind
I hope you remember
that I tried
the cold will last forever
in my mind
the cold will last forever
in my mind

it felt like I was in a long distance
relationship with the world
I don't know where I'll be tomorrow
but i won't be here anymore
please tell me that I did well
maybe I'll hear you before I go
im not sure if I should say I love you
I think you already know

please tell me that I did well
maybe I'll hear you before I go
im not sure if I should say I love you
I think you already know