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The Stupidest Mistake I Ever Made

December 9, 2012
By Anonymous

As I write you today
I have to wipe my tears away
They slowly drip wetting this page
I can’t help but feel sadness and rage
My heart hurts because of you
I’ve made my decision there’s nothing you can do
I really am going through with this
I’ve done it before just look at my wrist
Except this time I’m going all the way
You can’t stop me, there’s nothing you can say
The page on which I write is soaked
The pain I feel inside is forever cloaked
But as I write the tears continue to fall
Now I’m on the floor, leaning against the wall
I sit with my head between my knees
God will you take away the pain please
My whole life is spiraling out of control
It hurts so bad, I’m no longer whole
I trace the line up and down my arm
There’s no worry to be alarmed
By the time you notice I’ll no longer be
This life changing decision is left all on me
I have just released all the pain in my life
It’s sad knowing it’s because of the knife
I’m use to the pain and blood by now
But its never been this bad I think I need a towel
I’m starting to feel a little light headed
In my dying mind your picture is embedded
It’s the last thing I see before entering the light
I open my eyes to a room full of white
White walls, white floors
White pads and white doors
I’m finally in the place I need to be
Someplace to help me gain my sanity
I’ll spend the next couple of months in this custom jacket
This is much better than the inside of a casket
Now that I look back nothing was worth risking my life
The stupidest decision I made involved that knife
I regret it ever popping into my head
I now love my life
I’m glad I’m not dead
I’ll just have to move on from you
It seems like the most logical thing to do


The author's comments:
I had a special relationship with someone who walked out of my life in the blink of an eye. She don't know it but she took my heart with her. I contemplated ending it, but then I realized that life's to great to waste on one person.

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on Jun. 26 2013 at 7:09 pm
BalladOfMonaLisa PLATINUM, Na, Other
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Favorite Quote:
To love and to be loved; to hurt and to be hurt. These are the ideals that make up humanity. ~Me (Lisa)

I understand what you mean in this.... It is really good. I'm glad that you managed to keep it together :) Please continue to write.

on Jun. 26 2013 at 4:29 pm
artist-today SILVER, Alberta, Other
6 articles 0 photos 14 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Don&#039;t argue with an idiot they will bring you down to their level and beat you with experience.&quot;<br /> -Mark Twain

Love the emotional. It's amazing and relatable, great, great peice of art.

on Mar. 6 2013 at 10:09 am
MariahPotter PLATINUM, Lansing, Michigan
39 articles 8 photos 74 comments

Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;We dream in our waking moments, and walk in our sleep.&rdquo; -scarlett letter

Sadly. I relate, my past have been similar except white suit and jacket. Your an exceptional writer and evoke intense emotion in your writing.

on Feb. 7 2013 at 6:19 pm
Amanda24 DIAMOND, Lynnfield, Massachusetts
81 articles 14 photos 26 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot; Move on. It&#039;s just a chapter in the past. But dont close the book, just turn the page.

remarkable emitions!

on Jan. 22 2013 at 10:20 am
Ghostly-Ninja, Yuma, Arizona
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Favorite Quote:
Let not your smile,my sun,turn into icy tears

I know its so beautiful

on Jan. 22 2013 at 10:19 am
Dreamer_ SILVER, Milton On, Other
7 articles 10 photos 69 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;We&#039;re all mad here&quot; ~ Cheshire Cat<br /> <br /> &quot;Whats your dream?&quot;<br /> &quot;To go, away.&quot; ~ Surfs Up.

Wow! Very emotional, really good :)

on Jan. 11 2013 at 10:44 am
LyricLove SILVER, Webster City, Iowa
6 articles 0 photos 20 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Don&#039;t tell me the skies the limit when there are foot prints on the moon.&quot;

Poet... i am speechless. I can honestly feel the pain and sadness. You triggered those tough emotions and wrote them down into a beautiful poem. It literally brought a tear to my eye! :')  in a good way of course   KEEP IT UP!! :)

Zoya_Khan GOLD said...
on Jan. 9 2013 at 10:03 am
Zoya_Khan GOLD, Gujranwala, Other
19 articles 0 photos 420 comments

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Where LOGIC ends, FAITH begins.<br /> - Zoya Khan

Very nice :) keep it up!!!

on Jan. 7 2013 at 12:20 pm
Hamzawaseem GOLD, Lahore, Other
15 articles 1 photo 144 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;The important thing is not to stop questioning.&quot; ~Einstein

a great poem! I could feel the emotions

Tifa said...
on Jan. 5 2013 at 11:20 am
Nice.......and a comforting conclusion....  

on Jan. 4 2013 at 8:20 am
compassion GOLD, Nowhere, Other
12 articles 17 photos 153 comments

Favorite Quote:
Expect to have hope rekindled,expect your prayers to be answered in wondrous ways! The dry seasons in life do not last,the spring rains will come again.

Thats a very poignant write. You have written it very well. I am glad you found the LIFE to be more than JUST. keep it up.

on Jan. 2 2013 at 7:01 pm
Jesus_of_Suburbia SILVER, West Orange, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;There is only one god, and his name is death. What do we say to death but &#039;Not today&#039; &quot; <br /> -Syrio Forel, A Game of Thrones

This isn't bad, some of the rhymes are a bit simple, but i think thats the way it was intended. its kind of dark, but so is a lot of my writing. I, for one, liked it. the comment you left made it all really clear, so thanks for that. well done.

on Dec. 17 2012 at 9:42 am
AmieeHope-Sierra GOLD, Royston, Georgia
11 articles 0 photos 115 comments

Favorite Quote:
And There Will Come A Time, You&#039;ll See, With No More Tears. And Love Will Not Break Your Heart, But Dismiss Your Fears.

This poem was very descriptive when it came to the emotions you were feeling. I think that you did a beautiful job getting a point across to the reader. I think you did a wonderful job and I'm sure even if the reader hasn't felt this way before I think they got a good idea of what it would feel like to have someone slip away from you. :)

on Dec. 16 2012 at 11:35 pm
Elizabeth-of-rohan PLATINUM, Abbeville, Louisiana
35 articles 0 photos 49 comments

Favorite Quote:
Pain is stronger than life, stronger than death, love, loyalty, duty.<br /> ~Essad Bey<br /> <br /> &quot;you are tired (i think) of the puzzle of living and doing; and so am i. come with me, then, and we&rsquo;ll leave it far and far away&mdash;&quot; - e.e. cummings

This was cheesy, I feel that it could be so much better.    But it has what it takes to be good.

on Dec. 15 2012 at 11:50 pm
everybody-needs-some-body-to-love, Tulsa, Oklahoma
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Favorite Quote:
EVERY BODY NEEDS SOMEBODY TO LOVE IN I CHOOSE YOU. &lt;3

o my that was amazing tht was like the best poem i have read all year. and wow i absolutley have no words to describe how amazing this poem is. your amazing dude.

on Dec. 15 2012 at 6:35 pm
KnitsandPurls GOLD, Mahtomedi, Minnesota
13 articles 0 photos 83 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;I cannot live without books&quot;<br /> --Thomas Jefferson

Oh my goodness. There is so much going on in this poem. You have done a wonderful job. You tell a story, but subtely. You make me feel this person's emotions, mostly through their actions and thoughts. This poem is very, very vivid. This is very strong writing.   On a more constructive note, more punctuation would make it clearer. Also, as it doesn't strictly follow the limerick format, it would probably do better in the free verse category.   P.S. Certainly don't feel pressured, first of all. But I have a limerick posted called "My Socks". If you want to take a look at it and tell me what you think, I would be thrilled. It is very different from this poem. --KnitsAndPurls