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DISSIPATION UPON THE GULLIBLE

February 16, 2018
By Ava_Nicole_D BRONZE, Omaha, Nebraska
Ava_Nicole_D BRONZE, Omaha, Nebraska
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As I stare at my own reflection
in the black mirror
That I cradled so tightly in my hand,
A translucent water droplet falls from my eye
And slides down my cheek,
Representing my childhood that withered away from me
Sooner than it should have.

Sitting upright in my bed
I wish I had realized it sooner.
Realized that obsessing over people
who somehow “made it” in life
Took something so delicate away from me.

I realize that I did this to myself.
Wishing and hoping and praying for this device
That made me feel that “I’m so happy I could cry!” feeling.

I wish I could take that feeling back
And tell myself it wouldn’t last.
Because I missed out
On that time with family
That I regret taking for granted
Or not saying
Or not doing
Or not posting what I want
Because of the constant fear of societies opinion

I wish for a time machine
To let me go back and tell myself
That it would take my life away from me.
Like I placed myself as the victim
In a tragic homicide.
Except I was addicted to the pain
Without even realizing it was hurting me
And the once silent killer
That I held so securely in my hand
Began to buzz.

I felt robbed
As I watched the thing my parents worked so hard for
Just to make me happy
Unknowingly waste 5 years of my life.

Because that is what I thought happiness was.
A device I held so tightly in my hand
It made my knuckles turn white.

I could never get back the time I wasted
Scrolling for countless hours
Staring at this perfect image
That I wished so badly to achieve.

And I wish it hadn’t taken me that long
To finally throw my phone across the room
And forget about it.

Be careful what you wish for.


The author's comments:

As I began to get older, I started to realize how attached I was to social media and how it was slowly hurting me. I got to breaking point and decided to take a break away from my phone. I wrote this poem as an adieu to my old self.


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on Jul. 6 2018 at 4:04 pm
MissMaddyM GOLD, Lakewood, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
"After all we've been through... everything that I've done... it can't be for nothing" -Ellie, The Last of Us

Absolutely stunning. This says a lot about the way our generation is right now and really speaks to kids our age who waste countless hours on their phones and let their childhoods pass them by without even realizing it.

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on Mar. 3 2018 at 5:18 pm
MaskedGhost, Hadley, New York
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;My head&#039;s so tired but I don&#039;t care, no I don&#039;t <br /> Outside the sky looks like it&#039;s burning down but <br /> I won&#039;t fear, no I won&#039;t <br /> Falling down like angels fighting <br /> Stars and lightening hold me tightly&quot; - Hazel: by Cavetown

I agree with this. Great job!

on Mar. 3 2018 at 1:51 am
RedFlags BRONZE, Salem, Oregon
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Favorite Quote:
The first draft doesn&#039;t have to be perfect. It just has to be written.

Im new here just like you! you should read some of my poems, 2 of them have been published on the page so far. Love this piece you did

C said...
on Mar. 2 2018 at 4:53 pm
C, Wolcott, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
Always stand up for what you believe in, even if it means standing alone.-Kim Hanks

This is definitely a good poem. I always prefer rhyming and patterns, though.

on Mar. 1 2018 at 10:43 am
WolfWhisperer0911 BRONZE, Austin, Texas
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@Ava_Nicole_D Amazing poem! Genuinely relatable and the choice of words is excellent!