not Living, just breathing

Silently screaming

Inside.

I just want to die

Hold my breath, be suprised

at how hard it is.

I cant do it. I honestly want to say 

"Just screw it"

But i can't. Just die

Yeah, I don't feel alive

and I may feel empty inside

but I'm scared, to swollow

these pills, cause the silence kills

Stabbing at

the small peice of insanity I had

Closing, grasping, dying,

holding in the tears  I once shed

I just want to go to bed

forever

and ever

enough said

Long story short, I wanna be dead

but I cant

with these monsters screaming in my head

telling me, making me, fear death itself

and that I'll never be as good as anyone else

but i'll be okay...