What if

What if I could eat cake on my birthday without feeling sick later

What if I didn't have to prick my finger many times a day to check to see if I am ok

What if I could participate in chemistry class because I didn't have the open wounds in my fingers

What if I could exercise without having to break and eat a snack so I wouldn't drop low in the process

What if I could go to sleep at night not worrying I wouldn't make it to the morning

What if I could walk into school on the first day with no fear of having to explain my condition

What if I wasn't pitted because of my weakness

What if I had a decent picture of myself without bruises on my arms or a device strapped to my side

What if I could walk down the hallway just once without hearing a joke about my disease

What if I could eat a candy bar without being ashamed

What if I could go on a long car ride and just drive, not worrying about my blood sugar

What if there were no complications down the road

What if I can go through the day without being afraid of what could happen next

What if I stop being a burden to the people around me because of my needs

What if I stop scaring people and making them fear me and my condition

What if I didn't have to depend on a vile of liquid to stay alive

What if I didn't receive bills that my parents had to pay and soon I will for all the supplies and doctors visits

What if I didn't hear another doctor put me down because I "can do better than this"

What if I didn't apologize everyday to certain people in my life because I am afraid they will deny me as a person

What if I can't help that blood sugar that goes low almost every week in 2nd period

What if my friends wouldn't say "you can't blame it all on diabetes"

What if I have to say I'm fine, when really I've struggling to stay afloat

What if I didn't have to go to school after a night of lows and a morning of highs

What if my body didn't feel drained and empty when my blood sugar was high

What if I didn't feel like giving up and closing my eyes during a midnight low

What if I could accept my disability

What if I could accept my body and its failure to function on its own

What if I wasn't a distraction

What if I wasn't an annoyance

What if I didn't fear

What if?

What if I didn't have the one thing that made me who I was today

What if I didn't have courage

What if I wasn't brave

What if I wasn't strong enough

What if I didn't have this blessing in disguise

What if I didn't have empathy

What if I didn't have support from loved ones

What if I didn't have Diabetes. Who would I be now?