I am not scared, but I do still have fears.
Everyone does. Your parents, teachers, mentors, and peers.
They all have something that scares them to tears.
It may be spiders, the dark, or seeing some else's reflection in mirrors.

A common fear is being scared of death.
Dying young, when you had so much life left.
Or how it will happen, when we draw our last breath.

My biggest fear is none of the above.
It’s not dying alone, without someone to love.
It’s not standing on the edge when someone decides to shove.
It’s a fear I can firmly say I am not proud of.

My biggest fear is losing my memories.
Everyone forgotten. With no known remedies.
All that time I spent living now lost for centuries.

Because of this fear, is a reason I write.
I do it to kind of document my life.
I do sometimes leave out the dark and only put in the light.
Though it doesn’t always work out, but I do… I do try.

That’s why I started to videotape.
To give my memories a bit more shape.
And when I watch my videos back I am able to escape.

This fear that will never stop haunting me.