Color-coded | Teen Ink

Color-coded MAG

June 9, 2015
By TanviKusum DIAMOND, Gurgaon, Other
TanviKusum DIAMOND, Gurgaon, Other
89 articles 4 photos 197 comments

Favorite Quote:
All men who have achieved great things have been great dreamers.
Orison Swett Marden

"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say." - Anais Nin

we speak in hushed voices so as to not wake our memories


I don’t listen to music
But my playlist is filled with songs you suggested
They were supposed to change my life
They didn’t, you did,
you don’t always know better.
I listen to them and hear you,
Without hurt or guilt, I see them as them
Because they’re my songs hidden in files
On the hard disk of my computer, they
want nothing of yours anymore.
I talk in fragments,
Hindi, English and a variety of confused silences
Pausing, struggling to find words,
It was never easy communicating,
You just made me struggle and
left me to grasp for oxygen
In an aircraft designed to tumble mid-air,
-130 degree Celsius of pure tyranny.
My favourite game was always hide and seek,
I was so good no one ever found me,
But I never had the confidence to go out and win it,
I was always happy in my safe zone,
Never understanding the fun of having a den
A part of life I never learnt.
I always liked colouring, filling the blanks,
But never sketching because I was too scared
To draw a single out of place,
Considered as wrong line and spoil the beauty,
I forgot it was my creation, I could throw black ink
And it wouldn’t matter,
It is because I am.
You liked that, didn’t you?
Me being a shadow?
I wanted so much,
For you to collect the puzzle pieces of the muddle of my brain
And organize them into logical order, preferably alphabetical?
I wanted you to find me and hand me over the den, only if I had ever lost,
could I really win,
Sometimes being alone pushes you to find things you never knew existed,
I wish you had let me draw the contours of your face
And not said, “Maybe another day, you don’t draw anyway, or do you?”


The author's comments:

It is about how sometimes we change ourselves for someone, or that someone doesn't let us move forward. That someone can be you, yourself too.


Similar Articles

JOIN THE DISCUSSION

This article has 2 comments.


on Jul. 18 2016 at 11:42 am
TanviKusum DIAMOND, Gurgaon, Other
89 articles 4 photos 197 comments

Favorite Quote:
All men who have achieved great things have been great dreamers.
Orison Swett Marden

"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say." - Anais Nin

we speak in hushed voices so as to not wake our memories

Hey, definitely, seems exciting, please share it with me after you're done, looking forward to it :D

on Jul. 5 2016 at 6:00 pm
dont.cry.little.girl. SILVER, Ooltewah, Tennessee
7 articles 0 photos 45 comments
Hello! I and a friend of mine create spoken word and poetry videos. Because we love it so much, we were wondering if we could use your writing in one. Of course, we always credit the original author. We just wanted to ask beforehand.