My world is falling, crumbling apart,
Life is meaningless and that’s just the start.
Late at night till early in the morning,
I’m lying in bed with eyes wide open.
Didn’t sleep last night like all the others,
Instead I just lie crying in the covers.
Quick, wipe away all the tears before they come near,
Must hide this depression and these feelings of fear.
For all they know I’m always smiling,
But deep inside my soul is dying.
I can feel it rotting,
It wants to scream.
But I won’t let it,
Not for the time being.
I can never tell them how I feel,
Because the happiness I wear to them is real.
For them to hear I wish I was dead,
It would kill them; they’d be filled with dread.
So I’ll try my best not to be selfish,
I’ll keep my secret hidden and just let them rest.
But God I can’t take it much longer,
I’ll probably be dead before they even wonder.