I remember that it struck me like lightning,
The day I realized why I hate math so much,
And trust me, it’s not because I don’t understand it.

I think in numbers, you see, when I put something
Into my mouth, I am not eating food, I am eating
Calories; a number on a package, a sticker, a label,

And when I step on that scale for the four hundredth
Damn time that week, all I can see is that little
Flashing number that tells me I’ll never be a







Zero.

And as I said, here come the numbers again,
Telling me that zero is perfect, zero is empty,
Zero could be me if 1,500 calories got a little bit






Smaller.

And let me tell you that math doesn’t seem like
Much fun when by your 8:45 algebra class, you’ve
Already looked at the number on the tape measure (26)






Twice.

And let me tell you that there are fourteen letters in






Eating disorder

And that this is one math problem I still haven’t solved.