And I can write this in advance
because
my love for you is the same as always
but that's just the trouble
everything changed

You changed
you made me realize that
well,
I simply can't love you anymore
without dying
for your love
and I already have so many times
without your noticing
but there is so much life
that pierces this darkness
and relieves my pain
in my moments of clarity
when
I stop waiting for you
to cut the silence of your indifference
and take me in your arms
and cut off all communication
and emotional expectations
with the cause
of our heart break

Because
long ago
I naturally believed
we were one
- two beats:
beating,
as one

So yes, I'll miss you
but then,
I already have
for so long
already

Because you left first
or where never there
to begin with

So now I must actually go
to live my life on my own
and love myself
the way you never could
my very beloved