It’s like a sadness that you can’t explain,
No doctor could tell me what this is.
I feel it every day,
I feel the pain,
Yet try to hide the fear.
And the sadness.
That feels me all these years.
I don’t know why,
I know something is wrong,
But I won’t tell anyone what is happening
Not even I can explain,
All these things that happen to me,
But I know I’ll make it through.
Never taking drastic measures,
Yet always wondering how life would be
If I were not here.
I won’t get help,
That only shows weakness,
So I sit here by myself,
Hoping the song is well over by now.
My life is like a song on repeat,
Never changing,
Days go by and nothing has changed.
You can’t simply turn it off,
It never goes away,
I sit here in my room,
But the sadness stays.
Music almost heals it,
Every note makes me stronger,
But inside I am weak, scared, and just afraid,
But I will hold on for one more day,
I must go on for another day,
Friends I have, the pets that love me,
Life wouldn’t be the same if either of us left.
I don’t know what to do,
Sadness is calling.
Yet I stay.
Losing myself in the music,
Not caring if I am ever found.
So hard to smile, so hard to hold back the tears,
Only wishing you were here,
But I just haven’t met you yet.
I long for people back that I’ve lost,
But that’s not the only sadness here.
I can’t explain it in words,
I can’t even begin to describe it,
What is this sadness?
What is it that I feel?
I always believe that I could handle it on my own,
But if help is needed,
I know not one person who could help.
Dreams are calling me,
But the sadness calls louder.
I won’t let it stop me this time,
I will blossom like a flower.
I don’t need this,
I haven’t done anything wrong,
So I will just move on.
No one deserves this,
Not even me,
So I’ll see you on the other side of the sea.
This goes on and on,
Just like a song,
But the words are not beautiful,
The music is not sung,
Moments come as quickly as a bell being rung.
This isn’t over yet,
Only a break,
But I will gladly wait.
Because when I get the chance to achieve my dream,
I will go to it,
Not be held back by this sadness.
Leave me alone,
I wanna go home,
But where should I go,
If this is not home?
Home is not here,
I shed just one more tear,
Before packing my bags and hitting the road.
Thank you to all,
Who were ever there for me
But this is it.
I must go.
I love the universe,
I love to love,
But I can’t stand this sadness.
So when a chance comes,
I’ll take it without hesitation,
For I know that this is my destiny,
But thank you for the memories.