I am lost. I am nothing to any one any more. I am dead inside. I am lost inside of myself. I look into the mirror and it yells at me to end it all. Look into my eyes and all you see is pain. The smile you see is a fake, like everything in my life. I don't deserve anything I have. I am a doormat that is used by everyone. The trash in your drive way is better than I am. I am broken beyond repair. I am not good enough for anybody. I search for love but my heart is empty. I am every ones toy. They compliment me but it's lies to my ears. People have tried to fix me, but it is impossible. Everyone gives up after awhile. My life is full of lies. I was a born mistake to all. Everything I have ever loved is dying and fading away into nothing. Everyone who said they would never hurt has left me to die alone. The love that said it would never hurt me caused me the most pain. He laughs at me as my life crumbles around me. The darkness is the only thing that surrounds me anymore. I search for myself, for anyone that is willing to pick me up, but when I look around there is no one to be found.?WHO AM I? The question we all have about ourselves.