You were perfect

ragged

baggy clothes

shadows under your eyes

hair that fell in your face

every time you looked down

I loved you

I knew you

better than anyone

better than myself

I used to see your face

when I fell asleep

I thought

that I had found you

and every morning I would wake up in tears

because you were gone

again


That night you said

if she stopped loving you

you would die

and your eyes screamed that you were alone

and I was scared because I didn’t know

anything at all


please

don’t leave me


why do you even care?

I love you

I love you

I love you

but I didn’t say that

did I?

We never said goodbye

I didn’t understand then

what that scar was for

but I do now

and I can’t tell you

where are you?

where have you been?

because I’ve been looking

in every town and every

dream

I need you to know

what I should have said

years ago