i would love
to write something to meaningful
that everyone recognized my poetic voice
i would love
to come home and tell my mother
that i'm going to make her proud
i would love
to go to my father
and say everything is great
i would love
to know exactly what i believe
and know my faith is not for nothing
i would love
to be able to say
that i'm happy
and mean it
i would love
to be in love with my best friend
who was always the right one
but instead
i'm the girl
that people don't really understand
that's moody and hard to know
that dyes her hair and paints her nails black
that wants to get her tongue pierced and sings all the time
i am the girl
that rants about people being fake and lying
but doesn't really know who she is herself
and seldom tells the whole truth
i am the girl
that when i look in the mirror
i don't recognize what's there