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The Monster

October 6, 2011
By Rhiannonbloss PLATINUM, Aptos, California
Rhiannonbloss PLATINUM, Aptos, California
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Favorite Quote:
What is depression really? Is there one concrete definition, or has the meaning loosened as our generation has continued it's downhill descent? To me, depression is simply my life. I'm not suicidal. I'm not a cutter. I don't hate the world. I don't dress completely in black. I'm just sad. I've been sad for what feels like my entire life, but that's not true. I was happy once and I can vaguely remember what it felt like, but I can't touch it. I can't get that happiness back, I don't know how. That's what depression is to me, knowing what happiness is, but never being able to touch it, to feel it.- Jenny Leigh


Night has fallen over me,

Darkness covers my blind eyes,

I can't even see the abyss looming before me,

Still the voices call to me,

Screaming their dark melody,

Scratching at my every sense,

Tearing me apart,

Piece by piece,

Then I am released,

I am the darkness now,

I am the storm clouds,

Rage and agony burning,

Seething, boiling, churning,

I raze all to ash,

All that I have built and loved,

Turned to dust by fatal anger,

This person is a stranger,

I am the monster now,

Claws sharp and seeking,

Fangs dripping with venom,

I am what I fear the most.

In my anger it will all be decimated,

Everything eviscerated,

I can't control myself,

This monster has its hold on me,

My worst enemy is my rage,

And I am caged,

I will never escape,

These chains cannot break,

As my heart has,

Turned brittle by neglect,

It all goes away when the rage takes over,

The misery, the pain,

Nothing can stop this monster,

Its insatiable hunger seeks destruction,

There is no more hope for me.

I am lost behind the monster,

Chained into submission,

Held here by all my encompassing fears,

Mind flooded with the screams,

My heart deep within the darkness,

Held down by the memories,

Of what I have done,

The monster claws at me,

It has broken free,

Never will I be saved,

Somebody slay this monster,

Let death be my release from this affliction,

My release from myself.


The author's comments:
I was angry at the world and decided to write down my internal rage and compare myself to a monster.

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