Normality never fit into
My qualities
Aimlessly following my Odyssey's
Only to end up
Back at the starting point again.
Watch me stumble and fall
Without even taking a step
Because I'm paralyzed by uncertainty
And these puzzle pieces don't fit perfectly
I don't intend to harm you purposely
You'd be wrong to take my coldness personally.

Here comes the inquiry:
What do you want?!
What DO I want?
Am I better off detached from humanity?
I must keep intact my sanity
There is no more room for tragedy
So if you're here to play games
I don't play tactfully.
Although,
I don't have a heart of stone
Underneath it all I fear being alone
But if I let someone close to me, the promise I'll flee is known.

I am the definition of cautionary
What I wouldn't give
To be unabashedly ordinary....

Love is an illusion
Nobody's been able to change my mind
I'm enraptured in my minds delusions
Here is where the sun never shines,
And I chase around shadows
Trying hard to be someone else
But just when I think I've crossed the finish line
I've only taken a step closer to knowing myself....
This is the definition of hell
And I will spend my life dodging these bullets
So no one will be able to tell.

Secrecy builds quickly
Eventually you'll need to conceal it with lies:
Fake smile, fake laugh
Fake "I'm fine's"
It's so much to bottle up inside
So hard to keep it together, and truth begins to leak out the sides.
I'm so sorry for being unusually
Hard to hold onto
Nobody, not even me, can breakthrough
These walls and fences
My shields and defenses
There is nothing, NOTHING
Anyone can do.

So please just walk away
Don't make me the culprit of your pain
I already shoulder too much blame.

And normality never fit into
My qualities
Aimlessly following my Odyssey's
Only to end up
Falling at your feet again.