I wish I could:
have the life I wish to lead
heading forward fast and on full speed

I wish I could:
achieve in what I cannot do
in hopes that love will see me through

I wish I could:
hold his strength within my palm
to make him see he makes me calm

I wish I could:
let him know he means much more
than Caleb, Jon, or Theodore

I wish I could:
take away the pain of reality
because death rings with the harsh absence of normality

I wish I could:
tell my Mom who’s fairly old
to shape and make my heart remold

I wish I could:
reiterate that after a body’s in the ground
part of it is left around

I wish I could:
name my first child after Nic
even though his name he’d never let me pick