Have you wondered if two people were actually in love, or if they were pretending? Because I guess, to me at least, they are kind of the same thing. But I don't want pretending. I want to fall in love. I do. But I don't even know what it's like. I don't think I'm making any sense. let me try this again.
I want the kind of love, the kind that happens when I read my books. Where I'm feeling so much for the character, I can actually feel this pain inside my body. I don't know how to describe it. It's overpowering. I'm reading and something happens, and it's just kind of like, "Wow. So that's what love's supposed to be like." I believe that lots of people these days fake these kinds of things.
But I don't want Love to be immediate, You know? You probably don't because I'm not even sure I do. I want it to be gradual. I want to be able to sort out my feelings. I want to know what I'm feeling. But I will most likely be faking, like everyone else.



Want to know what I think love is?
I think it's when someone's gone, and you don't get much sleep, because you're not used to sleeping alone. So you wish for them to come back.
It's when you don't have to do anything except be together.
You share everything, even though some things you don't quite want too.
This is what I see when I look at both of my grandparents.
I want a love like that.
The one where even though you could be a hundred,
you still hug eachother good morning, or kiss eachother on the cheek.
But no one knows,
Do they?
This person could be in front of you the whole time.
It could be a recent crush,
it could be an old crush,
it could be someone completely new.
No one knows.
No one knows what you're feeling.
No one knows if you'll really be in love,
or if you'll be faking.
No one ever knows,
Do they?