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Closer to Life

December 11, 2009
By hello.beautiful PLATINUM, New York, New York
hello.beautiful PLATINUM, New York, New York
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Look at the nations and watch— and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told. -Habakkuk 1:5

Does it intimidate you

That I don’t speak to you

Cause when I speak to you

I feel so

Like I don’t know what to say

Oh yeah this happens everyday

And I don’t want to say

Just like hello, what’s up or hey
I want to talk about the things
That are stirring in my head
Keeps me from sleep at night
As I just lie awake in bed
And I’m sick of all this stuff
And no, I don’t think I’m tough
And I want to say the right things
But they’ll never be enough
I feel like it wont add up
But I cant just give you up
And its sometimes wrong
Not fitting right along
With the rest of the lines
As I once again pass you right by
Look away after I stare
You’re either oblivious or unaware
And I don’t know what to do
every time I walk by you
My pace picks up speed
And I get all like its crazy
Even though its just a few steps
I end up doing something I regret
And I just rethink it over in my head
And I don’t want to die
But I feel like I am inside
every time this thought passes through my mind
I feel like this could be the end of me
And I feel like im scared
For once not knowing whats ahead
But ill ignore the stares and proceed ahead
Because im no longer scared because of you
I belong and im strong, im the one in charge
Of this life and Im done believing the lies
Of this world and it’s no longer fate
That drives me to become insane, its my time
And im going take the time, my time, advantage is mine
Oh im doing just fine, thank you very much but
don’t pretend you care. And where
I may be I wont know, no.
But it’s just fine with me, wherever I may be
Ill take those nights with me, the rain
Still feel it on my skin
The mist, the haze of what could have been
Id make up a cliché excuse for the reason im still
Thinking of you, but theres not
Anything to explain these actions which drive me to remain
Like this, awake at night
I lie still
Dreaming of the thoughts
Which kill
Strangling my breath
Because for once
I feel closer to life
Than death

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on Jul. 3 2010 at 9:37 am
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Part of the J7X team. :)

This one's my favorite of yours. :)

It's true, relatable, and you can tell it comes from the heart.

Blaire! BRONZE said...
on Jan. 18 2010 at 11:21 pm
Blaire! BRONZE, Williamsburg, Virginia
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"The best days have yet to be lived"

Love this(: so true.