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cold hearted contender

October 12, 2009
By justjessie GOLD, Lakeland, Florida
justjessie GOLD, Lakeland, Florida
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Favorite Quote:
if i cant be something to someone then i want to be nothing to everyone

cold hearted contender
lets get down to it
were not what we seem
we say what we want
but never what we mean

and games like this are always
fun difficult and strange
but when we all loose there's no one to really blame

and this keeps falling back on me
and my misunderstandings
what a misfortune that your always the last one standing

and i bet that place up top
where u stand so high and mighty
and u get everything you want
i bet it feels so subsiding

and i can only guess that you cover up the pain
and you hide behind all the power you gain
but when your offered all these treasures
it comes with a price
and you cant give what it takes when
you cant even roll the dice

and im hoping you can move quickly
fast enough to get escape
from all the little lies that will chase the good dreams away
and nightmares steal your sleep
and the bedtime stories turn so gray
and a kiss good night isn't suffice when all you needed was someone that understands and dreams with you in the day

close your fingers around that bike handle
and push your feet to the pedals
tighten you perfect lips around that cigarette
and go get that shiny medal

don't respond to progress
and don't show any signs of caring
for if they find out your still alive
they surely slice you where you stand and
continues the music blaring

they dance and sing
blow a smoke ring
drink like a king
while their all hanging on a thin string

and i wont let this go
no not this time
im just not forgetting all those things we fought for
its just not right to give up all the times we got more
then our far share
what we've gained
gone to waste
on someones anger untamed

a mix-tape
a letter
with words so long
or something so simple
one line in a song
a tear falls on shaking hands
and laughter comes from broken plans
just a look can take me to a new land

for a picture so old
its so fulfilling
and i let it overtake me
with memories and regret
i wish i could go back and fix what i said
or forget
no just change what i said

broken like grandmas vase
or cold like the tears on her face
a dress too small made of satin and lace
a beautiful setting but too strange of a place
one best friend that with no time to waste
someone who understands but wont stay
a pen that can only write mistakes
just a lover with no sense of taste
a runner who cant keep up with my pace
treasure that sits in an empty case
im catching up but losing this race
left all the clues but gone without a trace

nothing much too say
my mind doesn't wanna explain
im trapped alone in my head
and my feelings don't change
i wont repeat all that Ive said
its pointless beyond belief
nothing offers relief
im just living in a story of make believe
take me outta your sleeve

im so convenient for a good time
or a ride
a laugh
or a good piece of mind

trying ends with defeat
but how to interpret when your time is up
when will we know that the coin is flipped
when do we finally get the heads up
when our tails our down?
should we shiver in fear
and coward an frown?
this carousel will always go round
the horses will carry us without a distressful sound
clowns are happy till they leave our town
but were the ones on display for the amusement of this cruel town.

driving me crazy with a broken wheel
tearing me apart with your sex appeal
wonder what you'll ask for next
wonder what piece of my heart you'll steal

gotta leave here before i say a word
thinking too much
but sleeping it off is absurd
because when i wake I'm still not reassured
but i love you anyway
one day after another
and i wont stop until i get you back under my cover.

The author's comments:
this piece was about a young crush that turned to a young love and finally became a young heartache. everything about this was a based on a time when i was vulnerable and naive to having my heart broken.

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This article has 3 comments.

on Oct. 21 2009 at 7:24 pm
smalltownwrite210, Apex, North Carolina
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i love the 'beautiful setting but too strange of a place'. great job.

on Oct. 19 2009 at 2:59 am
justjessie GOLD, Lakeland, Florida
18 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
if i cant be something to someone then i want to be nothing to everyone

thank you!! (:

archon GOLD said...
on Oct. 19 2009 at 2:35 am
archon GOLD, Mandeville, Louisiana
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another great one, love it. "a pen that can only write mistakes" fantastic line.