At first, I looked at you with this hopeless ambition
This thing that I knew would be ok
I started looking at you with confidence and this unwavering conviction you couldn't corrupt me.
But then I lost myself
I lost my confidence
I became a void
And you swept in to fill me up
You let me believe that you were a friend
That every time you helped me, it would make the problem go away
And then, all of the sudden
I didn't know if it would be ok
I didn't know who I was
And it scared me
So I made sure I counted every scar you gave me
32 times that you helped me
32 times that I gave in
32 times that I gave you a piece of my soul on a platter
And I am scared for when its 33
Because the last time, I barely stopped you
And now, looking into you
I figured something out
They were wrong
When you stare into the void
Slowly but surely
You become the void