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my only real poem

June 16, 2021
By SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]


The more people around me, the more alone I feel.

But lonely is a normal feel. 

For me, at least.

I don't cry. I keep my eyes ahead

Someday i’ll be surrounded by people

People who pay attention to me

People remember i exist

I'm not shy. I'm not an introvert

But i'm still invisible

And the more people there the more invisible i am.

And i'm not breaking, because i have a bright future

I hope. 

But i don't have to worry about friends

Because my eyes will stay on someday

And in someday, i’ll be happy

And for now, i have characters

And people in my head

And that will have to be enough.


The author's comments:

this is about me. i dont write real stuff about me often, but I... yeah. here it is. but I'll get over it. i always do. i didn't give it a title because its not like one of my other poems. it doesn't need a title and it doesn't need a reader. but I put everything I write on teen ink.


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on Sep. 14 2021 at 7:00 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

oh yes, i know that feeling well. my poems can testify.

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Sep. 13 2021 at 9:55 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
172 articles 54 photos 1026 comments

Favorite Quote:
The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.
--me

Definitely dreading Wednesday night church also. There's a girl there who was my friend over the summer and then abruptly starting ignoring me almost completely. I keep telling myself it's my imagination, but every week it feels more real. Do you know how cold it feels when you're watching people socialize in a circle and you're sitting across from them staring into your soul but they don't ever notice you? Also a photographer walks by and photographs the circle-kids. I had a mental breakdown last week...only coming home and writing for a couple hours calmed me down.

on Jul. 5 2021 at 2:52 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

i did it on purpose, to throw suspicion off- shoot i said too much!
no, I'm not a stalker and I'm definitly nt taking a lot of screenshots of all the personal info I can find on you and others. stop thinking about it so much!

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Jul. 3 2021 at 6:09 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
172 articles 54 photos 1026 comments

Favorite Quote:
The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.
--me

You have to be a novice stalker to give yourself away like that.

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Jul. 3 2021 at 6:08 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
172 articles 54 photos 1026 comments

Favorite Quote:
The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.
--me

I worry about you sometimes.

on Jul. 2 2021 at 4:11 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

(its cuz im a stalker and trying to get you to trust me and tell me how to kidnap you)

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Jul. 2 2021 at 11:25 am
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
172 articles 54 photos 1026 comments

Favorite Quote:
The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.
--me

The similarities between your life and mine are getting a little startling!

on Jun. 30 2021 at 6:30 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

and im at wensday night chrch now again. only 2 other people. they're engaged in conversation so here I sit on my computer. alone.

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Jun. 30 2021 at 12:23 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
172 articles 54 photos 1026 comments

Favorite Quote:
The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.
--me

Wow that was some confession--I have trouble believing you wrote that last comment and not me, because my journals are full of similar lamentations (Wednesday nights included!)

on Jun. 29 2021 at 9:46 pm
SparrowSun ELITE, X, Vermont
200 articles 23 photos 1053 comments

Favorite Quote:
"It Will Be Good." (complicated semi-spiritual emotional story.)

"Upon his bench the pieces lay
As if an artwork on display
Of gears and hands
And wire-thin bands
That glisten in dim candle play." -Janice T., Clockwork[love that poem, dont know why, im not steampunk]

i agree. and i downplay it and pretend I don't mind when people ask. i do like m characters, but seeing real people talking to each other nd ignoring me isan awful feeling. and well the more people there the more alone is true, the less people there the more it feels like those who are are activinly choosing to ignore me. i have this feeling most at church on Wednesday nights. i have to go because of my calling, it primarily consists of organizing Wednesday night activities. so while I have responsibilities, ill continue to make myself cry and make myself pretend I don't care. I've been more or less alone since third grade. i should be used to it. I've had a few friends come and go, but I'm alone. all I have for myself are promises that someday things will be different. i don't know if its a lie or not.
i cant remember if.. my only anyonymus wolfwalkers were duplicites that I couldn't delete. i think ti deleted them.i have a couple poems and a few stupid things I cant take down.

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Jun. 29 2021 at 3:37 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
172 articles 54 photos 1026 comments

Favorite Quote:
The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.
--me

btw, I know you must have a lot of anonnamys works as I have some also. If I see anything by "Annon" that is about wolf warfare with a trigger warning, that's pretty much a giveaway.

Lydiaq ELITE said...
on Jun. 29 2021 at 3:31 pm
Lydiaq ELITE, Somonauk, Illinois
172 articles 54 photos 1026 comments

Favorite Quote:
The universe must be a teenage girl. So much darkness, so many stars.
--me

Yeah. I hate how others mix up invisible with introvert--they think because nobody wants to talk to me, I must like being alone, when it's not really that way. I wrote a poem with a non-title too, it's called "The Final Poem," which shouldn't be taken the wrong way. It could sound like it's the last poem a person writes before committing suicide or something, but let's not take it that way. I am kind of a daydreamy nerd who finds imaginary characters better company than real people.