I don’t like public speaking

I don’t like people looking at me

I don’t like that people look at me and they see me

I don’t wear my heart on my sleeve 

I wear it in on my face

and I don’t like that everyone looks at my face

I do like my face

I like my appearance but 

I don’t like the appearance of my emotions on my face

I don’t like eye contact

I don’t like skin contact

I don’t like emotional contact because then people can see me and i don’t like when people see me

I don’t like humans which in a sense doesn’t make sense because I’m human

Which would mean I don’t like me

Do I like me?

I like my humor

I don’t like my voice

I like my mannerisms

I don’t like my nails

I do and I don’t like me

But people see me and they like me and

I don’t like that

I don’t like that I'm always nervous

I don’t like that I’m anxious

I don’t like that being anxious and nervous makes me human because 

I don’t like humans

But I am human

I don’t like humans but I like me 

I don’t like the world but I like my world

I don’t like contact but I like feeling close to myself

I like what I like and don’t what I don’t 

And i like that I can know this and still say

I don't like you but I definitely love me