Dear Perfection,
I remember the tingle that buzzed through me when I discovered you knew my name
I remember trying to blink less
So I wouldn’t miss a moment of your presence
I remember laughing to disguise my desire
Oh how I craved your touch
I remember you reciprocating every emotion with tender eyes
I remember it as if it actually happened
The mind is a funny thing 
I realize now that I daydream too often
I never had you, I only chased you
I chased
I chased the bar you set 
The validation
The fantasy 
And you let me
I tied myself up in your strings
And you used me as a puppet
I still want you
But I don’t need you anymore
I don’t need you telling me what to say
What to wear
Who to be
I am discovering that I am enough
That your perception of value is wrong
You made me believe that I was broken
And maybe I was.
Not for the reasons you whispered in my ears
But because I listened.
You had me fooled
How could you possibly care for me the way I cared for you
I understand now why I never saw you in pictures
In the scale
In the mirror
You never existed
You never will 
My sweet, darling, perfection.
You are a figment of my imagination
And it’s time I stop daydreaming
I love life without you
I love imperfection
Sincerely, Ava