You peer through your own narrow lens at me, 

I smile big looking into the void of your perspective,

chin up you say, 

I clench my teeth, and bite the back of my tongue, as I hesitantly bring my chin up, 

not too much

I quickly jolt my chin back down

shoulders back now, I push my tense shoulders back aligning myself toward your view 

make them straight

I feel my eyes begin to twitch 

tilt your head to the left my anxiety saturates my mind and I tilt right instead 

other left 

Feeling the depth of all my flaws exposed in her blurred vision, 

realizing my sense of direction is now skewed,

I feel as though my head is about to burst..

now smile big 

my smile has now turned into a photoshopped version of my true form,

I feel my face beating, my skin heating up with every demand uttered,

I no longer want to smile at all,

and truthfully, I never did.