out of my mind feels like i’m out of my mind
burning my bridges
just so i don’t have to deal
with bridging the gaps
spending every day
in my room
head in my hands, i am only comfortable
in skin i have learned to hate
paper all over the floor
hair messy
face pale
eyes red
smiling, but there’s a tremor in my fingers
i think i’m going crazy
losing weight, failing to communicate
swallowing pills just to feel anything at all
chainsmoking cigarettes, i’m smoking to die
awake every night
earbuds in
trying to make a dream out of rapping
trying to make a life out of writing
walking like i’m in a daze
teachers say they can’t even reach me
but i wonder if they try
punching walls, knuckles bleeding
wild eyes
wild eyes
wild eyes
out of my mind
feels like i’m out of my mind