They said I was acting differently lately

They say I haven't been acting myself

Truthfully i've just been hurting really bad

I'm just not the type to try and ask for help

I'm the type to hide and try to push it down

I'm the type to cry and never make a sound

Even if i was drowning, id only scream if nobody was around

My thoughts are so quiet but they just seem so loud

I've come to the point where i've hit the ground

Get a blunt light it up smoke till i'm high because im only okay when i'm in the clouds

Inhale the pleasure and exhale the pain

I'm trapped in my own body

Honestly i'm going insane

I'm depressed

And my own anxiety is killing me slowly

Some days im wishing i could run away from myself

Pack my bags and get out

I don't even know why i feel like this no one could help

Trust me i tried