Numb.

The pain is gone but I'm left with nothing...

The real me is trapped

Not happy

Not sad

Not anxious

Not mad

Just... numb...

But I didn't want to hurt my family so I stayed locked up inside.

Act. Pretend. Smile.

Goals I'll never reach.

And when I finally stopped?

Stopped the lies and the being who I'm not...?

Well, you were scared...

Not that illI hurt you but myself....

You. We're scared... and that hurts.

So the numbness is reppaced once again by the pain I barely survived...

So now I find myself locked up inside.

Act. Pretend. Smile.

Promising imI okay...

But this time I don't think illl be able to stop...

To avoid hurting you I'll stay locked up inside...