i try not to draw attention to myself

i stay quiet and try to hold it all in

hold all of the emotions in

but all dams will burst

the impossible expectations.

the hurtful thoughts.

the complexity of my world.

i can not handle everything.

i am only human.

Slowly the dam begins to weather.

The straight face I have worn for so long begins to falter.

I begin to question everything I know.

I begin to question everything everyone else knows.

Gentle at first, words begin to fall out.

A voice, loud and clear, begins to emerge.

And what a voice it is!

And what words!

Everyone who hears them,

everyone who reads them,

this voice and these words,

they will reach them!

And my first words take flight!

Anger and sorrow, love and joy.

All at once.

graceful.

and strong

my first words