why is it that i want to ask you every question known to man

yet not have any courage to go through with the action of asking?

it migt be that i am scared that my curiosity may scare you away

or possibly because i am scared of you never wanting to answer

but either way i'm scared and just wanting to know how you work

i want to ask you why you don't believe in god and what spiritual path you think you will follow

i want to ask you why you love math so much and how it can bring such a smile onto that face of yours

i want to ask you why you love that one film so much and what about it makes you laugh so much

i want to ask you why you are so scared to let people in and why you apologize for everything regardless of whether it's your fault or not

i want to ask what makes your anxiety and depression worse and what i can do to the best of my ability to make it easier

i want to ask you how you couldn't gone your entire life without anyone showing you just pure love

i want to ask you how you tick and what makes you run

i want to see your entire painting and see if i ever appear on it, even if just in a form of a hue

i wish i had the courage to ask you these things and so many others

but i don't even know how you could ever feel about my curious soul