I am smiling and crying.

I wonder when I will truely smile again.

I hear myself laughing fakely to their jokes.

I see myself as someone to hate.

I want to truely smile again.

I am smiling and crying.

I pretend that everything is all right.

I feel that I am lying to everyone.

I touch my heart, and listen for its beat.

I worry about my friends.

I cry because I can't stand it..

I am smiling and crying.

I understand that its impossible to fix.

I say that I am all right when I am not.

I dream my life will get better, as well theirs.

I try to help them much as possible.

I hope everything will be all right.

I am smiling and crying.